Tunnel Rat
New Here
Hey all I just happened onto this sight thought I would see what it was all about. About me 2 years active out of 4 (1987,88). I went SF sniper for the duration. I was in a army experiment that pushed us through the schools in groups of 4. I had the time of my life until the last mission when there where a lot of training accidents when my platoon lost 5 of 7 LOL. I did not know then how bad I was messed up. I separated out and began to drink and use recreational drugs for a long time to follow. Now I am sober and getting help from the VA but all the drugs they have me on make me feel worse and zombie like. I don;t sleep much and when it happens it's so rare all the next day I wonder what bad shit is going to happen as payment. My wife stands by me and helps when she can but at times I feel like such a burden to her. I have been trying to get seen at the VA since 1990 and finally in 2012 they admitted I was a veteran. It is so funny how that works I went places and did things for our government and in return the things I did have no records of being their other than what I had saved. I have been diagnosed with PTSD,Anxiety,Depression and Agoraphobia. I have more pills coming in that I feel like a pharmacist. I am still waiting for my rating from the VA on the diagnosis. I don;t know why it's taking so long everyone has stated those two words SERVICE CONNECTED and I don't care who you are a Doctor is not going to say that if it;s a lie. If anyone has any advice or been through any of it shoot me a post.