Morning anxiety

[IamJenna]

I woke up in total fear & panic again.
This has happened a few times this last week.
Just wanted to share incase others are going through the same thing.
I have an overwhelming amount of fear inside & anger.
I feel exhausted to the point in struggling to climb some steps getting out of breath. & im 26 & am usually fine.
When I stop to check in with myself I can feel the overwhelming uncomfortable feelings growing inside. I've self harmed a few times this week so am trying very hard to just keep myself safe.
It's like there's a part of me attacking myself this week if that makes any sense.
I went to the Buddhist centre to meditate which just made me even more aware of the intense feelings.
I hope that this has helped in some way to be more mindful throughout the day but I just don't feel stable or safe at all.
Constantly on edge. & jumping at any sudden noises. & I keep having memories flash through my mind all day long.
Been writing some stuff out when I can. & scribbling the anger out.
Going for walks.
Just seems to not be shifting but just making me even more aware of it.
If any1 has any more suggestions for me to try please help?
Thanks.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Constantly on edge. & jumping at any sudden noises. & I keep having memories flash through my mind all day long.
Been writing some stuff out when I can. & scribbling the anger out.
Going for walks.

I think that you are doing your very best to face and deal with the awareness of, and feeling your anxiety right now. I too have an anxiety disorder and sometimes it can become so intense. What helps me is distract away from the intensity of the anxiety and try to relax while feeling the feelings and express them out until I have finally been able to manage it a little better. I have learned that it does eventually move away from me and I begin to feel better. Fighting it for me, only makes it worse.

 

[IamJenna]

What helps me is distract away from the intensity of the anxiety and try to relax while feeling the feelings and express them out until I have finally been able to manage it a little better.

Thanks for this suggestion!
Counselling helped me majorly yesterday make sense of things. She told me I've been in a trauma state since being triggered by my mum recently. I went to a survivors group last night shared a bit.
Done a lot of crying & stomping it out a bit.
Went to mindfulness meditation again at the Buddhist centre today & im feeling a lot calmer in myself now.
Even felt a moment of peace while meditating which felt like everything will be ok.
Light at the end of the tunnel!!!

 

[The Albatross]

Setting my head in the mornings is key - inspirational reading, prayer, mindfulness, stress reduction activities, or breath work.
It is a trick to learn how to dial down the anxiety and a habit/behavior to acquire how to "re-start" the day as needed to be able to get through. Takes a plan, practice, patience, persistence and perseverance. Doable and over time things have improved and I have low anxiety more often than I did before.