Depression's back! assaulter appealed and it's back to court!

[LanaD]

Hi,

So things were going ok for a while there but now the mofo's appeal has been upheld (whatever you call it) and I've been called to testify. I am not doing well, also because of some other things. Depression popped up again and has been slowly getting worse, and I'm finding myself unable to get out of bed again. It's like being back on the roller coaster, albeit just at the beginning of the ride, when you're still going slowly on the flat tracks but know what's up ahead. I've also began to fear for my future again, as it's all part of the ride.

I don't know what it is I'm asking you but it just makes me feel better to feel connected with others who understand.

Thanks

 

[littleoc]

I am so sorry to hear about this, @LanaD . That sounds overwhelming.

Maybe it would help you to remember to do something for yourself, maybe make a few plans as well?

 

[LanaD]

I am so sorry to hear about this, @LanaD . That sounds overwhelming.

Maybe it wou...

Thanks for your words. I'm pretty much paralyzed these days. I try to take it easy so things don't get out of hand. But I was supposed to mail a letter but I just haven't done it - it's in the envelope but I just can't do it.

 

[Happyplace76]

Hi,

So things were going ok for a while there but now the mofo's appeal has been upheld (whatever you ca...

Being assaulted and then having to testify would trigger me too. I remember how hard it was when P was arrested and I had to show up in court the next day for the TPO - even with an advocate, I was intimidated.

As far as the depression - well you just described the way I get - and it is a rollercoaster - I have just lived 3 months of not being able to get up or leave house - one day I can do something, the next I can't - things I'm supposed to do. It's been happening for years, it is a thorn in my side. You are so very not alone. Are you able to see yoru therapist if you have one? If not, maybe make an appointment with your family doctor to see if an antidepressant might be necessary for you right now. This would be a frightening experience for a lot of victims... does the court have a victim's advocate if this isn't domestic violence related? If it is DV related, can you get an advocate from the DV shelter to go with you the day of the testimony? My therapist went to my eviction hearing (she's really nice, I know this is not normal lol) and it made a WORLD of difference just knowing I had someone there on my side. I can even relate to not mailing a letter - even the simplest things feel impossible. You're not alone.

 

[littleoc]

That does sound so hard... would it help you any to have someone else send the letter for you?

 

[LanaD]

That does sound so hard... would it help you any to have someone else send the letter for you?

Yes, that would help but I'm too embarrassed to ask someone else to do it. It's probably the smallest chore ever but I just can't do it. I almost feel like I need a helper, someone to do things for me that I can't do alone. If I had money I'd hire an assistant!

Being assaulted and then having to testify would trigger me too. I remember how hard it was when...

Yeah, it's all too heavy to think about right now. I don't want to stand in the same room as that man and have to talk. I can't do it. I don't have a therapist at the moment and I don't have the energy to look for one.

 

[littleoc]

Hiring an assistant would be so great! But, yes, costly. It makes sense that you would be embarrassed, but try to remind yourself that this is a very normal reaction. You have nothing to be embarrassed about