I Want To Be More/Improve ....

[Abstract]

I want to be more courageous and face more of my fears. In a conscious, self fulfilling rather than a self destructive/dissociated way.

Feel free to do yours, everyone. A thread for all.

 

[Raina]

Yes! I do as well Im just having trouble grabbing my old iron will, as it used to be! I'm sure its in here somewhere! If you are feeling that fire, then you've got hold of it, and can go for it! Yes!

 

[Friday]

Resilience, Strength, & Joy.

 

[NaeNae75]

I want to be more courageous and face more of my fears. In a conscious, self fulfilling rather than a self destructive/dissociated way.

Good for you! You're such an intelligent person, that I'm sure you can find something that can work for you. When I started with my current T, I had more success than with the rest combined. I've been with her for about a year. I started EMDR with her as well.

I'm not finished, but I can function a lot better. Good luck to you on your journey!

 

[shimmerz]

more courageous and face more of my fears.

Any idea what this looks like to you? Any plans @Abstract?

 

[Abstract]

Hi @Raina! Its funny as I think I'm a contradiction. As always apposing behaviours. Think looking back have been an adrenaline junky and did crazy stuff. Thought of myself as fearless in some ways. If aware of things head straight into them with no mercy with self. No preservation instincts and self compassion. But in truth when it comes to people and other stuff. Not. Dissociate, avoid, deny, evade, distract. Rewrite reality. If I don't see it don't have to deal with it. Difficult or pathological people and I react two ways. See them as normal and engage with them - they always love me. People are always impressed with me. ?Or become inassertive when it comes to self, hypervigilant or dissociative. Trying to hang onto the fire! Hope you are too.

Thanks so much @NaeNae75 for the kind words. Shall resist denying them. ;) Thank you for the inspirational story. I definitely need to hear them. So glad for you. So good to hear things can change so much and have. Thanks for the good wishes!

Hi @shimmerz ! Hmmm. Thanks so much. How to ever make that one answer when life and we are so complex. And Ive realised I am never one thing. I guess it starts with facing reality for me. Owning it and allowing it to properly sink into my brain and thoughts. Then not dissociating, numbing, procrastinating and withdrawing. Not sinking into a denial state of avoidance. Allowing myself to absorb, see, see people for who they are and to DO. To take action. My fears are almost always about unhealthy people. Sometimes I think over empathising is another form of avoidance in a weird way.

Also realised something else. Am often assertive these days but do it from the brain out. There is no emotional ignitor or emotional driver. Decing what I should do has to come from my brain. For once had a little healthy appropriate anger. Responded in an appropriate way and it helped move me. I didn't deny it, avoid or anything else.

Go me as I did some major stuff this evening. They aren't going to know what hit them. And that quite likely is going to spotlight me as a target. But I almost dont care anymore. Being shutdown is a bore.

 

[Abstract]

Feel free to pitch in people. Its here for all.

 

[NatBird]

I'd like to improve my ability to take in, absorb and digest goodness.

I'd like to improve my self care

I'd like to improve my sleep hygiene

I'd like to improve my living environment

 

[Abstract]

I too so want to be more resilient. Determined to be.

 

[ladee]

I want to improve my communication skills. To say what I want or need.

 

[Abstract]

I really do need to improve in facing things head on and not avoiding.

Less denial. Less self doubt. Less dissociation. More self trust. More action.

 

[NaeNae75]

I have a double black belt in avoiding and dissociation!

I need to work on that for sure!