Chutes and Ladders - Slide Down An Emotional Ladder Of Powerlessness

[HealingInProcess]

Sometimes my life feels like the game Chutes and Ladders and today is an example. I was expecting to "land" on a ladder today and receive some financial assistance but instead heard that it was delayed, which led me to slide down an emotional ladder of powerlessness. It really wasn't the event itself but the event was a trigger that I believe is built on a whole bunch of unresolved issues relating to depending on others and then finding myself disappointed. I tried to write the feelings out to get them on paper and that helped somewhat but I still found them overwhelming. I find it so hard to trust others and this stressor triggered that. I just wanted to share my experience. I hope and pray we all avoid the pitfalls of life and are able to climb up above our struggles to greater growth and healing.

 

[Lucycat]

Here in the Uk we have ‘snakes and ladders’. Climb the ladder, slide down the snake. I always wondered why you would slide down a snake. A chute makes much more sense.

 

[HealingInProcess]

Here in the Uk we have ‘snakes and ladders’. Climb the ladder, slide down the snake. I always wondered why you would slide down a snake. A chute makes much more sense.

Yes unless they call "chutes" "snakes" in the UK ha but I don't think they do from your post.

 

[blackemerald1]

For me merry-go-round's and slides??

I know off topic... sorry!

I think what I would be thinking is that all is not lost, the money is still on it's way. I think it's ok to feel disappointed. I'm not sure any of us are going to avoid pitfalls. Life just has them.

is built on a whole bunch of unresolved issues relating to depending on others and then finding myself disappointed

This is a constant source of stress for me. I resolve each time to expect less of other's so I am not disappointed. It is still a work in progress unfortunately.

 

[Hopefulphoenix]

Wow, @HealingInProcess thank you so much for posting this! It is exactly how I am feeling too.
(I think the snakes eat you and you slide down that way? Whats a chute?!)
Anyway at the moment I am in an extremely vunerable situation, and these “life blows” keep happening.
It feels incredibly unfair, and in me it triggers so much insecurity, anger and most of all inappropriate self blame. Yesterday after another appointment being cancelled, and one of the only people I know not responding to a reach out for help from me at all, I felt myself becoming depressed again. Its almost like if enough things are tough a part of me switches off into helplessness. Depression is the worst hell I know.
I couldnt sleep so I ended up journalling until 5 am and crying. It helped so much! I feel low and tired but not depressed.
I think maybe the trick here is to cling on and keep trying to be strong until we hit another ladder!! You are not alone.

 

[blackemerald1]

I think maybe the trick here is to cling on and keep trying to be strong until we hit another ladder!!

I agree.

Whats a chute?!)

It's a tube shaped object that is used just like a slide. Water slides have them a lot. Farmer's use them a lot... Large enough for a person or object to slide through!

 

[HealingInProcess]

Wow, @HealingInProcess thank you so much for posting this! It is exactly how I am feeling too.
(I think the snakes eat you and you slide down that way? Whats a chute?!)
Anyway at the moment I am in an extremely vunerable situation, and these “life blows” keep happening.
It feels incredibly unfair, and in me it triggers so much insecurity, anger and most of all inappropriate self blame. Yesterday after another appointment being cancelled, and one of the only people I know not responding to a reach out for help from me at all, I felt myself becoming depressed again. Its almost like if enough things are tough a part of me switches off into helplessness. Depression is the worst hell I know.
I couldnt sleep so I ended up journalling until 5 am and crying. It helped so much! I feel low and tired but not depressed.
I think maybe the trick here is to cling on and keep trying to be strong until we hit another ladder!! You are not alone.

What I like about this board is I feel like people finally understand these things I'm going through so thank the Lord and praise him for bringing me here. Yes I know about this vulnerability phoenix and I basically don't have any friends or family (although I have people I'm friendly with). I am also well acquainted with reaching out to people and having them no show or not return calls, even people I've known for years.

Yes I think there is like Anthony says a stress cup and we can feel like we've hit a limit. That happened to me today and I went off on God which I feel bad about but I felt like I just went over my limit and couldn't contain it anymore.

I'm glad you were able to get it out and I'm glad you're feeling better and I hope you get an opportunity to catch up on some sleep. Yes I believe you're right and you're not alone either!