Just venting

[littleoc]

I am feeling a lot better today :D

 

[Deleted member 42984]

I don't think you're worthless either, on the contrary, you're a great asset to this community!

 

[mamachick]

So glad to hear you are feeling better.

 

[bellbird]

I need to be more clear about boundaries, basically, with my mom.

Sounds like an excellent place to start.

making dinner in my mom’s house is next to impossible and we have to go to my sister’s

Sorry if you've gone through this in other threads; I am not up to date with a lot of them.
So your sister knows how bad the situation is at your mum's house? Is there a spare bed/couch/mattress at your sister's house that you could stay on?

I am feeling a lot better today :D

Very glad to hear this ?

 

[littleoc]

So your sister knows how bad the situation is at your mum's house? Is there a spare bed/couch/mattress at your sister's house that you could stay on?

Yeah, my sister knows. She tried to organize a cleanup once and it went really wrong, long story short.

My sister technically has a place for me to stay, but I wouldn’t want to stay. I might for a night or two, not a moment longer — her husband is really mean and not well, mentally. So it’s not an option. I’d go crazier there than here. At least here I don’t have anyone questioning if I deserve to be alive. It’s the little things.

I am not up to date with a lot of them.

No one is up to date on anyone, no worries!

 

[littleoc]

So glad to hear you are feeling better.

Thank you :hug: :hug:

 

[Deleted member 39750]

I am — do you have pets?[/QUOTE]

Yes I do. In my home I currently have two doggies. Marlie Miller and Freya Lillie. Both lab mix rescues. Both just turned two. Two pet limit. ?

 

[littleoc]

Those are very cute names :D

 

[Deleted member 48076]

I feel very hopeless. I keep trying to get out of my situation, and nothing is working.

I think my bird is going to die. I've now spent $2000 on getting her back to health. She keeps getting sick. She's sick again right now. My plants keep dying too. Something in the air, I don't know.

I do not feel like my happy-go-lucky self at all.

That's all. I'm not actually looking for anything, just wanted to say it. I have lists of things to do anyway. Something has to work eventually. I'll just be so exhausted by then I don't know if I'll feel excited anymore.

My siblings all got to go and live their own lives and be free, and if I leave this house it will be a fight. I wish I hadn't come back. I didn't have anywhere else to go, though. It is making me wish I didn't exist. I feel that no one wants me around and that I am worthless.

Have a good day, though.

Hey Littleoc,

Just wanted to tell you that you are absolutely not alone. I too feel hopeless, or better way of describing it is 'stuck'. I feel like I have trialled and tested everything possible to get out my situation and have hit a brick wall and am just punching and kicking at this brick wall and nothing is shifting - I always end up back here.

I too have nowhere to go. I am supposed to be looking for a place to live as my family are moving abroad in June but I don't actually know where to start? Could it be because I simply don't think i'll be around by June? I don't know. This is my second 'spiral' in the space of 5 days. Feels almost like right at the start, directly after my trauma when they used to happen so often. I am running out of energy to deal with these spirals, running out of hope that I will ever get better. I can honestly say PTSD has kicked the sh*t out of me recently!

I realise I may not have any advice to give but I hope that knowing you are not alone in this at least gives you a little shed of light at the end of the tunnel! Wishing you all the best!

 

[littleoc]

but I hope that knowing you are not alone in this at least gives you a little shed of light at the end of the tunnel! Wishing you all the best!

This is actually one of the sure-fire ways (did I spell that right?) to make me feel better. Although I wish you weren’t feeling that way.

Maybe you could start a thread for advice on how to start looking for somewhere? I bet you could get a really nice place that you deserve :):hug:

Wishing you the best, too! :hug: