InfiniteTangerine
New Here
I feel like this has happened a few times.
Essentially last spring I had an evaluation related to a recent traumatic event but they inquired about passed trauma as well. I find I'm unable to remember a lot of that evaluation, but I do remember that I tried to be honest and mentioned some trauma from my childhood when they asked (I just can't remember the extent of details I shared with the therapist doing the evaluation). So now I've just started going to therapy and she uses that evaluation and it stresses me out that I don't know what's in it. Sometimes she'll know something I wouldn't have expected her to know and I'll realize later I must have said it last spring in the evaluation.
Well today I finally asked her what it said about a specific topic and told her how I couldn't remember what I'd said last spring. She said something like "Oh I can't remember, I'd have to reread it. It was pretty vague" This confused me because if it was vague how did she know the stuff she mentioned before? And I'm pretty sure I tried to be honest and give some of the details the therapist doing the report had asked - I just can't remember what they were.
So then a few minutes later my therapist asked me if the referenced event occurred when I was a child or adult, I was so confused that she'd ask that because she has definitely referenced it as occurring when I was a child in passed sessions, but still I clarified to her that I was a child. She followed it up with another question on something she'd also referenced in the passed. I don't get it. Was the report really as vague as she was now acting? If so, how had she known things in the passed? Could she have just forgotten what the report said? Or was this an attempt to get me to talk about it (which I struggle to do)?
I generally like her so much but this interaction made me really uneasy. Like it felt like she either couldn't remember something major OR she was trying to trick me into speaking about it. Both possibilities kind of bummed me out. Any thoughts on which is more likely? I kind of get the feeling she was trying to get me to talk about it - but if so why ask things she's already established in the passed? Like did she just want me to directly say them (rather then her referencing them)?
Also I really wish I knew what the heck I said (or didn't say!) in that evaluation. What would be the intentions behind her not seeming to want me to know what's in it?
Essentially last spring I had an evaluation related to a recent traumatic event but they inquired about passed trauma as well. I find I'm unable to remember a lot of that evaluation, but I do remember that I tried to be honest and mentioned some trauma from my childhood when they asked (I just can't remember the extent of details I shared with the therapist doing the evaluation). So now I've just started going to therapy and she uses that evaluation and it stresses me out that I don't know what's in it. Sometimes she'll know something I wouldn't have expected her to know and I'll realize later I must have said it last spring in the evaluation.
Well today I finally asked her what it said about a specific topic and told her how I couldn't remember what I'd said last spring. She said something like "Oh I can't remember, I'd have to reread it. It was pretty vague" This confused me because if it was vague how did she know the stuff she mentioned before? And I'm pretty sure I tried to be honest and give some of the details the therapist doing the report had asked - I just can't remember what they were.
So then a few minutes later my therapist asked me if the referenced event occurred when I was a child or adult, I was so confused that she'd ask that because she has definitely referenced it as occurring when I was a child in passed sessions, but still I clarified to her that I was a child. She followed it up with another question on something she'd also referenced in the passed. I don't get it. Was the report really as vague as she was now acting? If so, how had she known things in the passed? Could she have just forgotten what the report said? Or was this an attempt to get me to talk about it (which I struggle to do)?
I generally like her so much but this interaction made me really uneasy. Like it felt like she either couldn't remember something major OR she was trying to trick me into speaking about it. Both possibilities kind of bummed me out. Any thoughts on which is more likely? I kind of get the feeling she was trying to get me to talk about it - but if so why ask things she's already established in the passed? Like did she just want me to directly say them (rather then her referencing them)?
Also I really wish I knew what the heck I said (or didn't say!) in that evaluation. What would be the intentions behind her not seeming to want me to know what's in it?