What's Keeping You Alive?

[DeadAlice]

Art and touching others - I have a very time accepting I am worth even one penny or one second of time - the worthlessness is very bad, but then death makes you realise you are nothing in the end so I find it very hard right now to believe anything I do is worthwhile or of any value/use

 

[Jade-]

I hope you are feeling better about yourself Alice...feeling worthless is hard to overcome and how most of us feel a majority of the time.

What's keeping me alive? .....

I have put so much thought and effort into ways to get out of this life that I'm living...and the only thing I could come up with for the longest time was suicide. It seemed like the only solution.

But then, I finally realized I need to put just as much thought and effort into getting the best out of this life I'm living....changing the way I think about it seems to be the solution.....

 

[Srain]

My family. I'm working as hard as I can to be a part of what is around and 'be apart of'. It's hard when I'm not there most of the time but I let everyone know what is happening without details and have been doing my best to stop hiding out in my bed. It's been so damn hard that skin literally feels like it's tearing off.

 

[Marie E.]

I live solely for my two lovely kids. They need a Mother who can be the very best role model for them.

 

[Heather]

what keeps me alive: my daughter
knowing that I am capable of so much more than this!
our cat - Cocoa
having my own place
my sense of humor:p

 

[Pink77]

(((((Ayesha))))),
I hope that you are doing better. Have you found something to live for given what others have written?
Pink

 

[Jade-]

The positive threads/posts....I love it when someone has an epiphany and shares it.

My head is getting clearer and I am having more hours each day that I'm not back 'there'.

Drawing, music and writing....I enjoy all 3 so much.

 

[Trinomial]

What keeps me alive?

1. Breathing. I'm addicted to it, I can't seem to not breathe for more than 30 seconds.

2. Purpose. I don't know what it is yet, but I won't be able to figure it out if I'm dead.

3. Curiousity. Basically, I am here. I want to understand as much as I can with the time that I have. Who knows, maybe I'll have some profound insight someday that can help someone else. I think of it this way: There are an infinite number of ways to "be" or exist--so why am I existing in this way instead of another way? That's the big question for me.

 

[KP the nut]

What keeps me alive?

Today, sheer bloody mindedness

 

[babaginge]

Okay I'm going to try to think of a positive here.. erm
My little brother is probably the only living thing that is keeping me alive, he doesn't realise how much he means to me.

 

[alixipain]

my cat. For I know he couldnt survive in the wild (I found him when he was still a baby his eyes remained closed for 2 weeks after I found him) 3 years now that we have been together.. Cant see putting a house trained 80 pound bobcat out on his own. he keeps me alive, and wakes me when I sleep in and tries to put me in bed if I'm up past midnight.

 

[brokenchild]

I don't know but this is one of those times I wish it would stop.

Normally I would say my great aunt, who raised me, and my dad (friend of the family). They are all I have and vice a versa.