Sufferer Finally on a path to deal w cptsd

[healingtides25]

I’ve been living my with CPTSD but only getting scant, occasional treatment for anxiety and depression. But it’s the emotional flashbacks that are taking a toll on the quality of my life. I’ve been spending too much time being critical of myself and of the people around me. I am currently reading complex PTSD from surviving to thriving by Pete Walker. The book has really opened my eyes and my heart and I’m ready to start a healing journey to recover from attachment and abandonment depression. Sadly, I can’t afford a therapist right now and I’m hoping to find some resources for myself in this group. Thanks for reading.

 

[Riley Jones]

I’ve been living my with CPTSD but only getting scant, occasional treatment for anxiety and depression. But it’s the emotional flashbacks that are taking a toll on the quality of my life. I’ve been spending too much time being critical of myself and of the people around me. I am currently reading complex PTSD from surviving to thriving by Pete Walker. The book has really opened my eyes and my heart and I’m ready to start a healing journey to recover from attachment and abandonment depression. Sadly, I can’t afford a therapist right now and I’m hoping to find some resources for myself in this group. Thanks for reading.

Hello, and welcome to the MyPTSD community. I'm so grateful you're here and have taken this significant step by reaching out and sharing your journey with us. It's truly commendable that you've recognized the impact of emotional flashbacks and are actively seeking to understand them better through resources like Pete Walker’s book.

I want you to know that you're not alone, and there is a community of people here who truly understand the struggle of living with CPTSD. We’ve all walked different paths, but many of us share similar experiences with attachment and abandonment issues, and we’re here to support each other through it.

While professional therapy can be incredibly beneficial, connecting with others who understand can also be a valuable part of the healing process. Our forums offer a variety of topics where you can find conversations and support related to emotional flashbacks, managing self-criticism, and exploring paths to healing. Please feel free to explore different sections to find the ones that resonate with you.

Remember, healing is a journey, and it’s okay to take small steps along the way. This community is here to walk beside you, and there's strength in sharing your experiences and learning from others. Please take your time, explore the forums, and reach out whenever you need to. You deserve compassion and understanding, both from yourself and from others.

If one day you're able to access professional support, we’d encourage that as part of your journey. But until then, lean into the support and understanding that this peer community has to offer. We're glad you're here.

 

[Sideways]

Welcome to the forum!

Pete Walker’s book is an excellent resource. If you find that good books are more accessible than therapy at the moment, I can also recommend The Body Keeps the Score. Van der Kolk is up there as one of the world’s best traumatologists, and this work in particular has really shaped modern trauma therapy:)

 

[arfie]

hello healing. welcome to the forum. sorry for what brings you here, but glad you are here.

i'll second @Sideways praise of both books. to me, finding a good therapist feels like the hunt for an honest politician. they're out there, but tough to spot and even tougher to get in league with. the good ones tend to have more work than they can handle and can be tough to connect with.

thank life for the peer support groups, such as this one, which help to sustain while the hunt goes on. but a peer support network, both live and online, does more than fill in a professional gap. in my own recovery, my peer supporters are the ones who help me translate all that psychobabble into real world usage.

 

[Susan Jane]

I’ve been living my with CPTSD but only getting scant, occasional treatment for anxiety and depression. But it’s the emotional flashbacks that are taking a toll on the quality of my life. I’ve been spending too much time being critical of myself and of the people around me. I am currently reading complex PTSD from surviving to thriving by Pete Walker. The book has really opened my eyes and my heart and I’m ready to start a healing journey to recover from attachment and abandonment depression. Sadly, I can’t afford a therapist right now and I’m hoping to find some resources for myself in this group. Thanks for reading.

Welcome I am also new to this group. I am also reading the same book and it is helpful in small doses. I think for me my wish to be recovered sometimes makes me go too fast as I panic that I will never be “normal” . Even though I don’t actually know what normal I am hoping for I am also have abandonment issues. Finding a compassionate and well skilled therapist is not easy, as Alfie said and well peer groups ( unfortunately I don’t have one) and online help is very helpful. This group was a special find and I hope you find comfort in the fact that you are not alone. Peter Levine is another name I am looking into, I like the idea of trying somatic experiencing (psycho babble name) rather than talk therapy. I feel like I have talked in therapy till I am blue in the face . I use lots of humor to cope with it all. Write in when your struggling, many of the people here are really supportive. Susan .

hello healing. welcome to the forum. sorry for what brings you here, but glad you are here.

i'll second @Sideways praise of both books. to me, finding a good therapist feels like the hunt for an honest politician. they're out there, but tough to spot and even tougher to get in league with. the good ones tend to have more work than they can handle and can be tough to connect with.

thank life for the peer support groups, such as this one, which help to sustain while the hunt goes on. but a peer support network, both live and online, does more than fill in a professional gap. in my own recovery, my peer supporters are the ones who help me translate all that psychobabble into real world usage.

Hello Alfie

 

[PamelaS]

I’ve been living my with CPTSD but only getting scant, occasional treatment for anxiety and depression. But it’s the emotional flashbacks that are taking a toll on the quality of my life. I’ve been spending too much time being critical of myself and of the people around me. I am currently reading complex PTSD from surviving to thriving by Pete Walker. The book has really opened my eyes and my heart and I’m ready to start a healing journey to recover from attachment and abandonment depression. Sadly, I can’t afford a therapist right now and I’m hoping to find some resources for myself in this group. Thanks for reading.

I have been without a therapist for about a year now, because of a horrible experience in a facility and the abuse I received from my therapist afterwards. I didn’t need that on top of everything else. Not everything out there is beneficial. Some of it actually is abusive.
So for the past year, I’ve been licking my own wounds, and when I was ready, I started doing research. I purchased a whole bunch of resources, including books and video. And I’m very very thankful that I got connected with this group. It has been very, very helpful in many ways. Stay connected with people who get it. Do some work on your own for now if you can’t afford therapy. Keep working through it and moving forward at whatever pace you’re able to. Keep reaching out and getting support from peers who have been there done that. Lots of a good idea ideas here on this thread. Also resources in the articles. I can never learn enough. Keep doing what I can to keep moving forward. Hope you all the best.

I have been without a therapist for about a year now, because of a horrible experience in a facility and the abuse I received from my therapist afterwards. I didn’t need that on top of everything else. Not everything out there is beneficial. Some of it actually is abusive.
So for the past year, I’ve been licking my own wounds, and when I was ready, I started doing research. I purchased a whole bunch of resources, including books and video. And I’m very very thankful that I got connected with this group. It has been very, very helpful in many ways. Stay connected with people who get it. Do some work on your own for now if you can’t afford therapy. Keep working through it and moving forward at whatever pace you’re able to. Keep reaching out and getting support from peers who have been there done that. Lots of a good idea ideas here on this thread. Also resources in the articles. I can never learn enough. Keep doing what I can to keep moving forward. Hope you all the best.

This is my latest investment in my healing journey. It’s self guided. My trauma informed therapist recommended it, said she took one and a half years to work through it and recommended not going quickly. I’m happy as a clam with my mountain of resources. Alongside all of you, I feel better than I have in more than two years. Thank you all again.

 

[DSkyler]

I have also found this book helpful. There are a lot if resources out there. It goes without saying that that in itself can be paralyzingly overwhelming.

 

[PamelaS]

I have also found this book helpful. There are a lot if resources out there. It goes without saying that that in itself can be paralyzingly overwhelming.

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This looks really good, because I actually have complex PTSD even though I’m only diagnosed with PTSD. I am going to give this one to try. Thanks for sharing.

I have also found this book helpful. There are a lot if resources out there. It goes without saying that that in itself can be paralyzingly overwhelming.

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Yes, we can easily get overwhelmed and then triggered. But I take my time. I don’t make any decisions quickly. That helps to alleviate the overwhelm. My brain processes, the options in the back of my mind over a few days, and then I can move forward on a decision. Thanks for sharing.

 

[DSkyler]

This looks really good, because I actually have complex PTSD even though I’m only diagnosed with PTSD. I am going to give this one to try. Thanks for sharing.

You’re welcome. I saw it on a CPTSD Foundation site. I like how it’s written and I feel they’re talking right at me lol. I agree-I take my time with it all or I could end up ordering lots of books and reading none. I’m getting a lot out of working through it, especially alongside EMDR.