"I know that I am making the right decisions, because out of all my options, the choices that I am making now are the most difficult ones".
Hiding is easy, sheltering ourselves from the world is easy, beating ourselves up is easy, denial is easy, self medicating and numbing one's self is easy... dealing with the pain, the emotions, accepting things for what they are, and having the courage to face them head on is not.
This slogan is my "litmus test" for what I need to do in my journey. Case and point, I have decided to return to the scene of my accident, after 14 years of avoiding it at all cost. It scares me to death, but I know that it is a vital component to my road to health. I know I'm not ready now, as I don't yet have the tools, but am working with my doctors and have conveyed my intent to do so. I have told myself that in the next few weeks (before I return to work - on ST disability right now for this) that I will make that journey. As difficult as it may be, that I feel will be pivotal in not allowing me to deny things anymore. I learned yesterday that even though I can tell people what happened (admit it), emotionally I have not accepted it because I still punish myself. Therefore, I am still in denial, even after all this time.
One other one that I have recently started saying is...
"No day is perfect, but as long as they are improving that is all I can ask."
Even when today may be worse than yesterday, all I can ask is that tomorrow is better than today. It's symbolic of "one day at a time."