Trying To Stay In The Here And Now?

[mental_case86]

I've dissociated for a while now, but these last few days I think I spend more time not here than here! I keep going off to good knows what planet and its never a nice place, just constant of the past going over and over again.

Another thing I do is, I guess it could be described and an out of body experience, like I'm watching the world go by, watching what I'm doing but not being a part of it and having no emotional connection to it.

I've read up on some tips to try and keep me in the here and now, but I'm struggling to do them, I'm to tired to fight anymore.

 

[Lionheart]

I am sorry to learn that you are struggling.:( I understand how tiring it is to work through trauma issues.
What you are attempting to do is hard work, but it can be done and I'd like to encourage you to hang in
there.

I don't really have any good advise for dealing with flashbacks, but I do want to support you in your efforts to be free from them. I also want you to know that after I had done some emotional level therapy work with a trauma specialist, the flashbacks slowly diminished in their frequency and intensity. Now, I seldom have flashbacks and when I do, I find that I recover from them much faster and easier than before.This is my hope for you as well.

Wishing you peace and comfort,
LH

 

[mental_case86]

Thank you LH

Its good to hear that you have found therapy has helped you deal woth these things.

Im feeling so alone and scared and I just dont know what to do anymore

 

[Red Feather]

I keep going off to good knows what planet and its never a nice place, just constant of the past going over and over again.

Another thing I do is, I guess it could be described and an out of body experience, like I'm watching the world go by, watching what I'm doing but not being a part of it and having no emotional connection to it.

I do not know where I go sometimes mc. (((mc))) Yesterday I got triggered really bad and was just shoved out of my body again. It takes me so long to find any sense of orientation after something like that happens.

These experiences are strong dissociative states. My therapist showed me a techniqe to use called Somatic Experiencing for when I start to dissociate. You put fingers from your left hand in between your nose and upper lip. And then your right hand holding your head behind you, just above the neck. It might help. If not you can switch hands.

Hope this helps. (((hugs)))

 

[mental_case86]

Thanks Nadia
Appreciate it xxxx

 

[piratelady]

MC: Do you have a trauma therapist that you could talk to? I've only just started mine, but I'm told in the long run it can really help to reduce these sort of symptoms and experiences.

 

[mental_case86]

I have no-one, Im on the waiting list for sexual abuse counselling but dont know how long that is goin to take. The lists around here are quite long!

Im really starting to give up, on ever being normal, thoughts are becomming overwhelming

 

[piratelady]

Well, I hope you are able to get help soon. Are there other avenues you can pursuit to get help sooner?

There is also so much information on this site - you might even be able to help yourself in the meantime. I have a therapist that I see every week. I only just found this site, but it has been very helpful already. Especially in-between sessions. The people here are supportive and there is a wealth of information. If you ever need to talk, I'm here. :)

 

[mental_case86]

Nope, I've tried GP, CPN and my pysch but to no avail, the waiting list I'm on now is for a a charity based organisation.

I've just joined so trying to find all the differant information on here

Thanks , that means a lot x

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

(((mc))) I am sorry that you have the need for a place like this, but am glad it is here for you. I know all too well the feeling of being alone in your pain. You really are not. We all have traumatic pain, and the cause is rarely the same. But, we can come together in a place like this, to lift each other up, and to reach out to when you feel most alone.

The most important advice I can give you, is to not give up! Although you are on a waiting list for help in the 'real' world, you can learn a lot just by reading other peoples ways of coping and healing, and sharing your own pain. It is also important to have proper medical/psychological help, so stay on that waiting list!

There is something powerful in writing out your story, there is a diary area on the Forum. When the trauma and resulting fallout feelings stay in your head they seem to grow! Like a pressure cooker, it lets off some of the exhausting emotions.

You have done well just by coming here and sharing your battles, and hopefully, your successes! By the way "normal" is a point of view, and some 'normals' are no FUN at all! Very important...try to keep a sense of hope that you can get better!

Blessings to you and your family!

 

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MC
I know what is like to wait on the list. I too was on a list for what seemed like months, but in a strange kind of way it is a good thing because it gives you time to figure out your triggers and find a way through the intrusive images that no doubt change every day.

I learnt so much about myself whist I waitied for my councelling to come through. I also learnt a great deal from reading literature on PTSD and RR-PTSD (as they call it in the states). Back here in the UK there is lots to read through, to discover what you are feeling is not uncommon, that you are feeling normal things for someone who has no doubt been through a trauma.

I also found it helpful to write my story, Im yet to post it here, but I showed it to my husband and close friends and supervision at work. None of them understand but they are as close to as they are ever going to be now. It has empowered them to help me more by not mentioning certain words, why I turn up late for work or run for the floor on a bad day. It also started my healing. Dont get me wrong, Im not ready to talk, but it certainly helped me shape my thoughts. It was hard work, I cried for days but I feel soooo much better for it now.

Even if you take the first steps by writing the basics and showing it to no one you have proved to be brave and ready for the fight to healing. It can be done, many people do...you just need to find the inner strength to fight. Turn your fear and tears into fight rather than flight!

Has your GP advised you of any medication? I was against 'the pills to get me through the day' but I gave in after a really, really bad that sent me to worst place I have ever been and gave in. I am now on beater blockers, which stop the 'flight' (the need to run for cover because Im so scared). Y

 

[Deleted member 14359]

MC
Sorry for abrupt end...computer went off on one...

Have you thought about antidepressents, even if they are for a short time, some are addictive though so discuss with your GP at length first.

I hope you find a resolve while you wait.

Always here to chat if you need to :tup: