Coping While Waiting For In Patient Treatment???

[thematrix]

I just found out that my in patient treatment is going to be delayed for quite some time.how do you cope day to day waiting. And what if that treatment doesnt work? There are things going on, that are ongoingly traumatic in the meantime, that are out of my control. Dont know how to deal with all this. Any and all coping strategies and advice, anything that has worked for you, please share..:(

 

[anthony]

Coping is not really what has worked for another, but what works for you. This is why people with uncontrolled PTSD often self medicate, smoke, drink, etc, trying to keep themselves in some state of normalcy, even though they are completely unhealthy within their own right.

Coping strategies are really dependent on your life, your situation. If living within a traumatic environment, then may the best coping strategy is to remove yourself from that environment, even though that has consequences within itself... or focus on preparing to leave that environment, thus removing a lot of your daily stressors.

You can't really do trauma therapy if your environment is traumatic in itself, because anything done in therapy is undone immediately the moment you return to your environment.

 

[thematrix]

Thank you Anthony. I am guilty of self medicating. I am trying to get out of this all so hard so it is behind me. Processes are slow. I have tried to explain this to people involved but there is an extreme lack of understanding despite my attempts at trying to articulate myself and what I am going through mentally, and that this must end so treatment can be more effective.

There are consequences, this is so true. I have tried to decrease stressors, it has been difficult.

Everything you have said is so completely accurate. I know this must be behind me to move forward, it is a very unhealthy situation, and I am trying to move forward, but processes are slow.

I have been trying to distract myself, and have made feeble attempts at doing things out of my comfort zone. I wish I could just push pause on my brain somehow and have a moments rest and inner peace.

My trauma specialist is rightfully frustrated at times as well because this is ongoing, and so am I.

I have been put on so many different meds throughout. I do not believe this is a medication issue. This is a situation ending, treatment, and moving forward issue, in the interim so much suffering. It is very difficult, physically and mentally exhausting.

Thank you for your response Anthony.

 

[thematrix]

I just found out all matters are going to be ongoing for another year. No one understands I need to put this behind me and for this to be over, for treatment to be effective, I have tried to explain this so many times, they do not understand.

I am so discouraged. I told the truth and feel I am being punished for doing so. I did the right thing, I know that, I also know that in telling the truth others will be helped, but have paid the price so direly. I am trapped, and I cannot get out now.

It is going to be several more weeks before I go for in patient treatment now. I am so discouraged. I cannot stand these intrusive thoughts and cannot make them stop, I feel sick all of the time. I try so hard. I am so tired. I am exhausted. I am mad at myself for not being stronger. Life is passing me by and I know it. Why can't I be stronger. Why cant I just get over it all. Why wont my brain stop it, and leave me alone. This is excruitating. Everyday, every minute I try to fight it. Its like a dark presence that never leaves my side. I do not want to die. But am very concerned that I am deteriorating, I dont know how much more my body can take.

Whining about it doesnt do any good either. I apologize for the pity party but I feel so very alone, and I am so tired, my life has been ruined for doing the right thing, the right thing-its so wrong and unjust. I cannot imagine how I am going to get out of this. I know in patient wont be effective because this is ongoing. No one hears me.

I have never felt more alone in my entire life.

 

[thematrix]

I dont know what I said what wrong or why I just got that notice. I wont post anymore.

 

[amethist]

Hi thematrix

It was just a simple reminder of the forum rules, nothing more.

I inserted paragraph breaks into your post above your last reply, this helps with readability for other members.

Blocks of text can be ignored by some, yet it may hold some good information for others, or a question someone could answer for you.

So breaking it up into smaller chunks is easier for everyone.

 

[thematrix]

Ok. Sorry about that.

 

[Innordinate]

Cope day by day. Slowly, day by day. For now. When inpatient starts you'll learn how to make that week by week and figure out how to do it better. But for now, day by day, slowly.

Sorry, I hope that helps even a little bit.

 

[intothelight]

Hi Thematrix,

What you are experiencing is PTSD and it is not a personal failure or a character flaw. It is a disorder that requires specialized treatment in the form of therapy and sometimes medication.

While you are waiting, take a few minutes to decide which of the symptoms are the most troublesome at this point in time. Take each one, one by one, and search this site and the web for information that might help you find some healthy coping methods while you are awaiting treatment.

Wishing you the best.

Debbie

 

[thematrix]

Thank you Innordinate and intothelight. That does help, even knowing there are other people who actually understand helps. Thanks again.

 

[freakofnurture]

Coping, I don't know. I coped by hiding in my books and screaming at every male human being in my sight.

Best coping still is to get out of there and never look back. Find a way. Even a number of temporary solutions will be better than staying there. A women's safe house, a friend's place, some church thing, whatever.

It doesn't matter as long as it's a safe place that you can return to, especially when you get discharged from the clinic. In-patient treatment is exhausting. You'll be better overall but still very likely feeling like a crayfish without a shell; you'll need a safe place to rest and recover.

And people not understanding and punishing you for telling the truth - get away from those people, they are toxic. You will not be able to heal with these people still playing a significant role in your present life.

 

[thematrix]

freakofnurture thank you for your reply. Thank you for your insight.

I thought I had a safe place, and a person I could count on, when needed,but that person decided they couldnt take this anymore and notified me via text last night.

This was someone who stated they would help me until things were better. Instead, while I still await in patient, this person has chosen to discard me.

I understand how taxing it must be for a supporter. But of all the times to walk away, this is the worst.

This person wouldnt even give me the courtesy of saying it to my face or even on the phone.

To me, this is cruel beyond imagine. I was always frank and honest, this person lied. It seems I am surrounded by toxic people, I am starting to wonder if there are any healthy people out there.

At the same time, I know I am not healthy, but that does not give anyone the right to treat me like garbage.

There is also a part of me that is releived, that I know now this person cannot be trusted or counted on, and I am very angry at my self for trusting this person in the first place, after all this time, and then to be discarded..I feel no one deserves my trust.

Not that there is anything special about my trust. I guess I am saying I have lost my faith in people and in humanity, as it seems so lacking and unjust in this world.

Thank you again freakofnature.