Odd Way To Cope

[shadowchaser]

I know it's still kinda self injury but it does keep me from rubbing myself raw. I've been coping with wanting to rub by giving myself tattoos.

Now I don't mean with a pin or nothing I have an actual tattoo gun. Every time I get way to low I pull it out and either touch up something I already have or put on something new. Still need to find someone to work on my back. Kinda hard to reach it after all.

Anyone else just have odd ways of dealing with life and stress?

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I used to love getting tattos. I was suprised because it did not hurt. I understand the love of ink. My daughter gets a new tattoo everytime something happens in her life. She has alot of tattoos. She used to self harm by cutting. I think she replaced it with getting more art on her. I understand. I have a few tattoos. I do not want anymore. I have 5 tattoos. They are all rich with meaning.

I use it as a detecker for people who will judge me and those who will not. It helps. I feel like i am going to the spa to get a new tattoo. But they are so expensive. I used to have alot of piercings too, but I took them out. I decided I am getting too old for such things.

I am glad you have a gun. Good luck with getting your back done.

 

[shadowchaser]

I decided I am getting too old for such things.

My aunt at 89 years of age just got her first tat ever. Never to old lol.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

:roflmao:

 

[shadowchaser]

She had me do a 9/11 memento on her arm. Just 9 11 with a tear drop with blue and white shading below it.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Wow she must be a very special lady to do that at her age. Keeping young at heart. You are lucky to have her. But I guess you already know that. Big hugs to you.

 

[shadowchaser]

She has her good and bad. Always an adventure but also one of the first to tell me to just get over my ptsd.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

That is a shame. The older generation is stoic and entrenced in denial I think, not everyone but alot of them. My husbands mom had dementia and we to put her into a nursing home. At first all she could talk about was getting out of there. But she got used to the schedule, she never complained and we had a hard time making sure she got good care. They are stoic. That is all they know. I heard it takes two generations to overcome some abusive cycles.

We will see what the baby boomers do.

 

[shadowchaser]

All I can do is hope.... and put a movie on the tv. Finished eating off my ink myself again.

 

[shadowchaser]

Ugh thread got moved. I had put it where I did because for me this is moving forward. Well guess the higher ups decided different.

 

[discarded]

This might explain why my sufferer has been inking up. I was thinking of getting one too but not sure as I would like something really maeningful.

 

[Srain]

As a teenager I was suicidal and a cutter with bulimia. How I coped in my 20's was with piercing myself. I have my nose pierced twice, my right ear double the lope all up the edge and the left double lobe and couple up. I stopped when I kept losing earrings and got tired of the cost of replacing them (I can only wear 18k gold or my skin gets infected, that goes for any kind of jewelry, it sucks because I'm hapless when it comes to things like that). I always got infections at first piercings because I couldn't stop myself from touching the site, something about after pain.

When I started ink I loved it but I would be completely covered if I had a gun of my own! It's not the after pain with ink but more the anticipation and the branding perhaps; but the reality is, for me, it's still seeing my pain, though not the destructive method nor horrid reaction of scars left by a razor.

This doesn't mean I regret getting my ink, I LOVE the tattoo my wrist/forearm, and will work to finish and ultimately love the one on my ear. The one on my leg will always remind of something I will never want to go through again.

Just my thoughts on this.