What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[goingonhope]

Kat, I'm sorry you agree with depleted. I hope not for long.

 

[Springer80]

Really lonely, over 3 months now that I split with my PTSD husband. We had been together nearly 28 years. I miss him.

So sorry this has happened to you discarded. I can't imagine what that must feel like after so much time together. Please rest your heart. Big Hugs ((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((discarded)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

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[ms spock]

I mostly sat around watching tv today.

I had a few weepy moments.

I made contact with a couple of people.

I have to drive up to Sydney tomorrow to pick up some of my stuff.

Tomorrow I see my psychriatrist.

 

[ms spock]

That is how my head thinks. My psychiatrist, earlier this year, said that that is my natural thought pattern and we need to rewire it. Still working on it. I think about it at least once a day. I hate that my brain goes that way. Too bad there isn't a switch to turn it off. Would make life much easier.

Learning to reregulate and to change those thinking patterns is quite the challenge.

 

[ms spock]

I'm sorry that your psychiatrist took advantage of you, even if he wasn't abusive, it was a total abuse of power and he should have known better. Very betraying.

One was most abusive and the one knocked my two front teeth out. I am the biggest loser. All of the exploiting type of people picked me out. I feel like never leaving the house again.

I hope you feel better soon. Grief is such a difficult thing. I know, I'm still grieving for the death of my mom.

This is so hard. It is hard to be grieving. I can't imagine how painful that would be for a mother that was actually a mother to you. It would be so painful.

 

[amethist]

I am feeling I should put things into perspective.

I have to go to the dentist today and there will be an injection involved. Other friends have worse things to deal with than this.

Putting that into perspective because my husband is well, one friends husband was suicidal over the weekend and another is in hospital.

 

[Traumagirl]

((((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))

I am feeling half sad and half hopeful. I guess I am hopeful that my sadness will end soon. I don't really know.

 

[discarded]

So sorry this has happened to you discarded. I can't imagine what that must feel like after so much time together. Please rest your heart. Big Hugs ((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((discarded)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

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Thanks so much

 

[KP the nut]

I'm feeling so much better today. As stressful as the weekend was I really enjoyed it and apart from the Victorian Fair on Friday I managed well.

I have spent this morning lazing in bed with the dogs. I will have a shower soon and get dressed. Then I can spend the day pottering around.

I'm proud that I take the time I need to find my balance after a busy few days. It was an important lesson to learn.

(((HUGS))) to those suffering especially (((PH))) and (((Discarded)))

 

[Springer80]

WARNING: if your good mood is fragile today, skip this one!! It's upsetting me :rolleyes:

I feel like a joke; a delusional fool; a dead loss, a lame duck; someone who doesn't know herself, pathetic, redundant; inert; complaining; stupid; lonely; gullible; hurt. I feel like someone who isn't sure what to believe anymore or what to do. I don't recognize myself. I don't like myself like this.

I realized today (and have known/felt for ages) that I don't trust anyone in my family. The ones who are close I don't trust, the ones I would talk to I don't trust not to pass it back to the ones I definitely don't trust, some others who I don't know well enough and of those most would/have don't want to hear anything unpalatable they just want it to be over/fixed/solved/tidied.

 

[goingonhope]

I guess I'm fragile this morning and know it, because I'll need to hope to come back to read your above post. I challenged myself but chose not to read beyond the words lame duck. Glad these words are just words and feelings not necessarily determinants to our responses and actions.

I certainly can relate to feeling like the unmerciful judgements and messages others and/or myself have attached alongside me, are what is. Thank goodness feelings are not facts, nor in some cases nor are our beliefs. One of the first and biggest challenges my trauma confronted me with was a whole array of distortions in my perception and confidence in myself. Delusional isn't so bad, rather neutral and common IMO, until we attach fool to it.

Please take care through this, consciously choose any stress minimizing, healing actions that you can think of and then take, ....and continue on and through.

Sending you some huge cyber-Hugs (((Springer80))).

 

[goingonhope]

I'm feeling so far so good considering.

Sharp enough with an ability to think. Dull enough to avoid thinking deep and hard. (Is there a sexual undertone or fantasy in here) ...kidding and (lol)

Energetic enough to accomplish something and yet not so energetic enough to accomplish most likely what other's expect me to accomplish.

With it enough not to chain smoke, but not so with it to yet succeed in keeping the smokes down under all conditions.

Grateful enough to badly want this forum to reach its goal for the end of the year, yet not so interested as to avoid for another moment numerous in my face, pain in the ass, tasks and responsibilities that I must now get to.

Silly enough to bold exclusively the good feelings I feel, yet presently in too much denial to want to acknowledge and certainly not highlight, other real and yet more difficult feelings which I also feel.