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GreenFrog2
I am so ashamed of myself. I know that what has happened to me was, and is, not my fault. I tried hard to not be devastated by everything that happened, but it beat me. I'm kind of OK with that, as I did my best to cope, but at the moment there are so many stresses in my life that I am constantly overwhelmed, and this has shattered my hard won self esteem and self-management strategies.
As a result I am once again on a down spiral - why are they always so much faster than the 'up spirals'? Couldn't care less that it is Christmas as I don't need the stress that being involved in this would bring to me. But I really need social contact as this always helps, but I don't have any for now. Am working on this, but it's pretty hard when I am such a basket case!
I keep pushing myself to engage in social activity as it is so good for me, but my doc keeps discouraging me from this due to the stress and anxiety it causes me. This is not helpful! Of course it is stressful, but in the long run it will be good for me, won't it?
Anyway looks like I am in for another badder than average day....wish me luck in coping with it!
As a result I am once again on a down spiral - why are they always so much faster than the 'up spirals'? Couldn't care less that it is Christmas as I don't need the stress that being involved in this would bring to me. But I really need social contact as this always helps, but I don't have any for now. Am working on this, but it's pretty hard when I am such a basket case!
I keep pushing myself to engage in social activity as it is so good for me, but my doc keeps discouraging me from this due to the stress and anxiety it causes me. This is not helpful! Of course it is stressful, but in the long run it will be good for me, won't it?
Anyway looks like I am in for another badder than average day....wish me luck in coping with it!