Learning To Reach Out

[Snowblower]

New here...well in my last session I was suggested to reach out more and stop isolating.... I'm here. I've have been in and out of substance abuse rooms, and usually relapsing after hearing people share. I'm simply done hearing about that shit. Problem is when I try talking to "normal" people either I f*ck it up and scare them away or I just hate them for whatever reason.

I am fortunate to have my fiancé and I wanna do more with her as well but once in public situations all these memories come back to haunt me.

Even advise would make me happy at this point because I really don't want to isolate.... I just don't know how to in a healthy manor.

 

[Upside Down Eagle]

Hi Snowblower, I think you've made a start by joining this forum :) Fact is that people here share a lot of symptoms, though not all the same, and sharing thoughts about them may be encouraging.

I used to hate normal people too. Well, I still hate them sometimes, but now increasingly there are situations in which memories and anger don't take over. Sounds like in your case the substance abuse is a way out of that. I'm not judging, I have been there myself, but stopped before I could get addicted. Are you currently talking to anyone about these memories?

 

[Kas_Can_Fly]

I used to hate normal people too.

Odd this, I'd never really considered this. I do, I suppose hate many if not most people. The reasons why? I think a combination of fear and intimidation on one side and jealousy on another - I wish I could function the way others do, or be normal, not have PTSD or the trauma that caused it.

Even advise would make me happy at this point because I really don't want to isolate

For the first time in over 5 years I've made a proactive attempt to make social contact with someone I've always trusted and so far it has proven to be the best decision I've ever made. I find all forms of communication and social interaction, being outside of the walls of my room or making an effort to not scare people exhausting so to make this effort was an enormous step. I started by emailing and never more than twice a week but usually once a fortnight or so. I'd recommend that, but then that situation doesn't always present it's self. I agree with Radise though, coming here was a fantastic first step. Do you get therapy and/or have you tried group therapy?

 

[Snowblower]

Not judged....I have been talking to somebody....well just started again after awhile off. I use to do EMDR but I have started trying EFT.

 

[safenow]

What is EFT?

 

[Snowblower]

Emotional freedom therapy

It's based on meridians of the body combined with affirmations.

I have not done group therapy outside of NA and AA

 

[safenow]

Thank you, Snowblower. Sounds interesting. I am a firm believer of positive affirmations.

safenow