Trigger(ed)

[Kekopi]

I hate you.

I hate you, you’re sick.

I hate you, you’re sick and perverted and you aren't worth the air that you consume. You’re depraved and filthy, I can’t stand you, you make my skin crawl. There is nothing that you can do that will change what a whore you are. You are only worth one thing and barely worth that. I wish you would suffer more because that is all you deserve. I hope you die, but not without pain, you filthy twisted whore. You make me so disgusted. You've f*cked us all over, haven’t you, twisting us, turning us to you for ruin, because you deserve nothing better. You need to be punished so much, that we have to become bad people just to fulfil the necessity of damaging you. You must feel more pain. You must feel more hatred. You must feel more fear. You’re sick and twisted and worth no more than a f*ck or two.

I HATE YOU SO MUCH. I want you to suffer. It’s for your own good. You shouldn't die, that’s too good for you. You’re so sick. You’re revolting. You’re like shit on my shoe, you ruin my day. Why the f*ck won’t you just go away, you’re so bad even I can’t look at you without feeling contempt. You deserve this. I wish you would suffer more. I wish you would feel the pain more purely, but not even the pain, even pain is too good for you, you need to feel the depravity that you truly are. A malignant speck of wanton filth that if left untreated will contaminate even the shit around you, because you are that bad. You’re so vulgarly, polluted, you are worth nothing short of being bound and violently f*cked, it’s a shame you don’t feel the pain, because you deserve so much more than that. You disgust me. I wish you’d suffer more because you’re not suffering enough. You need to be shown. You can’t be this way and live near other people. You can’t be this way and have good things.

You cannot be seen, you’re sick and wrong and you cannot change, no matter how hard you try, you’ll only expose more and you’ll only peel away to reveal more revolting layers of worthlessness. You’re worth less than nothing. You’re the scum of the earth. It’s people like you who shouldn't exist, can’t you see what you’re doing all the time. You savage, sick twisted, bitch. You deserve nothing less than to be the vile whore that you are. You degraded, tainted, rotten, immoral, evil, wrong, depraved, corrupt, immoral, perverse, filthy whore. Just shut up and take this because you’re not even worth this, you should be ashamed that there is nothing fit for you wherever you go because there is nothing equal to what you deserve for being the way you are. I hate you. You’re so wrong. Just completely sick. Die. You slut. You freak. You whore. I HATE YOU. Why can’t you hate yourself enough for what you really are, you’re wrong. You need to be punished. You must suffer. We’ll have to teach you a lesson. We will forgo what we need to show you what you need because you need to be shown and when you eventually learn – which you never will, you need to learn how to feel the way you should about just how sick and f*cked up you truly are. I just wish dying was enough because at least then you would be removed and we could move on from your sick depravity. You disgust us all.

 

[Naho]

Hi, I think you might be lost. The rapist/murderer forum is further down the street.

 

[Vawasa]

Hi, I think you might be lost. The rapist/murderer forum is further down the street.

That is one way to read it... yet there is another way to read it... i.e. being triggered and feeling that way!

 

[Cafe]

There are red flags everywhere. As upset as a person might get you don't call women whores. That's straight out of the mind of a rapist. Are they a really filthy, degraded whore that has to be shown a lesson? Because a woman can be degraded until she doesn't have any worth anymore? And you're going to show her how worthless she is?

 

[Ciziju]

I beg to differ, that if read from a self perspective, women having endured sexual abuse often believe they have whored themselves in moments of weakness and self-doubt. Take off your blinkers in reading things and put yourself into another's shoes of self-image.

 

[Upiz]

Just shut up and take

..? You're only good sex?

People get angry. But that mindset is abuser language.

you are worth nothing short of being bound and violently f*cked?

I think somebody's having problems with the wife.

 

[opij]

That is how I feel about myself not about anyone else.

 

[opij]

That is how I feel about myself

This post and the quoted post are from the original poster. That is solely how I feel about myself most of the time, its just some of the underlying rant, that I have been told on this forum, to say/write/type just get out of my system and then get rid of it. Well I've done the writing, I've cut myself a lot, but it's still here and I don't know how to get rid of it. How do I get rid of it. I think it might be nice not to feel that way, but I don't think I deserve and/or am allowed it.

 

[Degapa]

Oh I'm so sorry. I thought someone's stalker was here or something. Sorry about the misunderstanding.

 

[Owo]

The type of material that you wrote, regardless of it being about yourself or someone else, should be "headed off" from the beginning with the words "RANT" or "VENT" or "TRIGGER WARNING" - in my humble opinion.

 

[opij]

The title is Trigger. Surely that much has been made clear.

 

[Cupal]

The title, "Trigger" could imply that the posts will be about triggers (maybe how to deal with them, or how a particular trigger affected you). Or the title, "Trigger" could be a warning that the intention of the original poster is to trigger others - (maybe that was your intention?). Most people would assume the former, not the latter.

By including "rant", "vent" or "trigger warning" it alerts the reader that the writer's intention is not to trigger others, but simply to get something off your chest. I think you can see what I mean because you got some negative feedback that stated other people thought you were an abuser, and that wasn't what you wanted to happen, was it? You were just writing about an internal dialog that goes on in you - do you see what I mean?