I was raised in church, and am gratefull for it. I'm a musician, proficient, but not professional. I play gospel songs I grew up with almost every day.
I was raised to believe you had to be saved, if were not, you go to hell the moment you die. No other way is viable, there are absolutely no alternatives, any other kind of thinking was SEVERELY wrong, unthinkable, unacceptable, and most of all, simply invalid.
I have had PTSD most of my life, though it was not diagnosed until I was 38. I have learned and done a lot since that time. I am a recovering alcoholic, and I've taken drugs too. I will have 6 years of sobriety this coming friday.
In AA, step 3, it says:
"made a decision to turn our will and lives over to the care of God as we understood Him".
This was contrary to the way I was raised, and at first rejected this notion, although at the time I might well have been the sickest person on the planet.
However I soon realized that people who were working these 12 steps were being transformed before my eyes. In addition, I saw how people's lives started coming together, in remarkable short order time, and in ways other than mental health and sobriety. To me, the proof is in the pudding, nothing else could have been doing this but some kind of ultimate higher power. I choose to call him God.
I have been the butt of some judgementalism among family and friends, but I simply can not subscribe to such a fundamentalist notion.
Religion can be used in an abusive manner, it's not difficult to find articles on the subject of religious abuse.
One of the things I have had to learn about in the past 8 years, is the notion that there are boundaries, and religion has boundaries. I try to respect the boundaries of others, but I also have to protect my own boundaries as well.
- PEACE-
I'm glad your here
I was raised to believe you had to be saved, if were not, you go to hell the moment you die. No other way is viable, there are absolutely no alternatives, any other kind of thinking was SEVERELY wrong, unthinkable, unacceptable, and most of all, simply invalid.
I have had PTSD most of my life, though it was not diagnosed until I was 38. I have learned and done a lot since that time. I am a recovering alcoholic, and I've taken drugs too. I will have 6 years of sobriety this coming friday.
In AA, step 3, it says:
"made a decision to turn our will and lives over to the care of God as we understood Him".
This was contrary to the way I was raised, and at first rejected this notion, although at the time I might well have been the sickest person on the planet.
However I soon realized that people who were working these 12 steps were being transformed before my eyes. In addition, I saw how people's lives started coming together, in remarkable short order time, and in ways other than mental health and sobriety. To me, the proof is in the pudding, nothing else could have been doing this but some kind of ultimate higher power. I choose to call him God.
I have been the butt of some judgementalism among family and friends, but I simply can not subscribe to such a fundamentalist notion.
Religion can be used in an abusive manner, it's not difficult to find articles on the subject of religious abuse.
One of the things I have had to learn about in the past 8 years, is the notion that there are boundaries, and religion has boundaries. I try to respect the boundaries of others, but I also have to protect my own boundaries as well.
- PEACE-
I'm glad your here