Done.

[erasjkhanson]

So much mdr, so much talking, can't do it anymore. So much crying, so much anger. Just can't. I have tried so hard

 

[snappy_turtle]

Hang in there, dear. Just hang in there. It's going to get better over time. Your sufferings now will not go unrecognized later.

 

[Deo Juvante]

This might sound silly, but imagine your heart is a white light pulsating out of your chest. Picture it in your mind. Now hold your breathe and push like your going to the rest room. As you push, picture the light growing bigger with each pulse until it surrounds your body. You now have force field that shields you from negativity. Hit me back, and tell me if it worked. If not, there's other ways.

 

[Echo]

Sending you healing thoughts, @erasjkhanson, to clear the negativity enough for you to find the strength to go on. Please don't hurt yourself.

 

[Deleted member 20280]

@erasjkhanson I have been where you are right now with my own EMDR experience as have so very many of us on here.

I feel safe in saying that you are in all our hearts and minds at this time (((((HUGGGGGSSSSS)))))

Laurie

 

[Dissociation]

Maybe you shoud ask your T for more practical things.
For example this one:
[DLMURL]https://www.myptsd.com/c/articles/finding-negative-core-beliefs.42/[/DLMURL]

 

[WillyKat]

Don't hesitate to contact your T for an emergency or call the crisis hotline.

 

[Deleted member 24908]

I don't know if I have PTSD (well, not to the degree of everyone on here, at least) or not, but what I do know is you sound a lot like I have before, and the thing that helps me through it is to make it just through tonight.I tell myself that I'll make it just through tonight, and I keep telling myself that, and before I know it, I don't need to tell myself that anymore. It's much easier for the brain to understand small chunks of time than large ones, and usually when I start to struggle, it's because I've looked back at my entire past and my present, and can't imagine my future (or imagine the rest of my life being this way). You may need to make it just through the next 12 hours, or the next 1 hour, or whatever you may need to, but find a period of time you can get through, and just keep slogging through it- for me personally, it's "I made it through last night, I can make it one more night". Then the worst part is over, and I don't have to just make it through any more nights for a while, and I'm always stronger for surviving it. I also try to find some silver lining somewhere, anywhere, no matter how small or insignificant it may seem, even if it's just "I can look back and say I fought through that, and I won".

So will you be a stronger survivor- we all will.

 

[Barconian]

Just can't. I have tried so hard

You can so!!!