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GrokkingAmbivert
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@FridayJones Im sorry for your many losses from what it sounds like, and I pray you... as well as your son heal those pains.
My whole life I was told lies and kept in the dark regarding many aspects of my own life, as well as many other family members. But once I started seeing that everything is not as it may sound of appear to be, I rarely ever see things as "exact truths" when it comes to SO much of the healing process & understanding. I found a picture recently of my entire immediate family, minus my dad, when rented a home in the keys (I was 17ish). It's 1 of 2 pictures I have with the majority of my family members in it. I knew someone had to take the picture, which was my dad, but then when I looked at my moms face in them & compared her face to the other photo, I saw the exact same STRANGE creepy, disgusted frown that I always remembered my dad getting onto her about. She HATED being in photos, I've always known that. Her face in them is very distinct. Autism runs very strong in my family. My father & brother are autistic, and my mother shows signs and symptoms of a form of it, but refuses to seek help. THEN I went to my mother's mother's albums and saw that she made the SAME face in photos... But only when kids were in photos with her. It's like out of a movie! My mother & aunt were abused by my grandmother, which I only found out recently by other family members. It's just all secretive and honestly kind of reminds me of American horror story. But, I know that a picture says to have a 1000 words... But also it has 1000 different possibilities too. I'm a photographer myself, and I know that in today's world, I can manipulate my photos as I wish to (pimples and more!), so it was more inquisitive & thought provoking. I have very few theories/knowledge of anything about my family. But part of my healing is to try and understand what was going on during my life, so the photos COULD have given me clues. I wouldn't have taken any as "truths" though!
My whole life I was told lies and kept in the dark regarding many aspects of my own life, as well as many other family members. But once I started seeing that everything is not as it may sound of appear to be, I rarely ever see things as "exact truths" when it comes to SO much of the healing process & understanding. I found a picture recently of my entire immediate family, minus my dad, when rented a home in the keys (I was 17ish). It's 1 of 2 pictures I have with the majority of my family members in it. I knew someone had to take the picture, which was my dad, but then when I looked at my moms face in them & compared her face to the other photo, I saw the exact same STRANGE creepy, disgusted frown that I always remembered my dad getting onto her about. She HATED being in photos, I've always known that. Her face in them is very distinct. Autism runs very strong in my family. My father & brother are autistic, and my mother shows signs and symptoms of a form of it, but refuses to seek help. THEN I went to my mother's mother's albums and saw that she made the SAME face in photos... But only when kids were in photos with her. It's like out of a movie! My mother & aunt were abused by my grandmother, which I only found out recently by other family members. It's just all secretive and honestly kind of reminds me of American horror story. But, I know that a picture says to have a 1000 words... But also it has 1000 different possibilities too. I'm a photographer myself, and I know that in today's world, I can manipulate my photos as I wish to (pimples and more!), so it was more inquisitive & thought provoking. I have very few theories/knowledge of anything about my family. But part of my healing is to try and understand what was going on during my life, so the photos COULD have given me clues. I wouldn't have taken any as "truths" though!
