Well I was right, ....more words came to me..... I feel upset and angry at the unfairness of the amount of health problems I'm struggling with.
I have gained a lot of weight due to my inability to get proper exercise and it makes me feel frustrated. I am also afraid because I am a prime candidate for a heart attack. IE; (High Cholesterol, High Blood pressure, Over-weight, Inactive Lifestyle, Diabetes, COPD, CFS/ME etc.).
I just feel tired and defeated sometimes.
Yet, I am basically happy man who has succeeded where many would have failed and I consider myself to be very fortunate in some ways!! So I guess the big word for me right now is that I feel conflicted. (torn)