Sufferer Just Me And C-ptsd

[RavenGirl]

I spent my whole life not being able to speak what I was thinking or how I was feeling.

I'm right there with you, I think a lot of us who suffer from PTSD due to childhood abuse do. After all we were taught that we better NOT SPEAK ABOUT ANYTHING by our abusers! So is going to take a while for us to be comfortable speaking our minds or feelings about anything as it leaves us vulnerable. Our minds / bodies remember what happened the last time we were vulnerable, we were badly hurt. So or minds / bodies try to stop us from being vulnerable again as a defense mechanism. We have to retrain ourselves and that's going to take time. Baby steps are ok even if we "have to crawl and scratch a centimeter at a time", just so we are able to move forward. Hang in there, You're stronger than you think! ! I believe in you. :tup::smug:

 

[Ironlady]

I'm right there with you, I think a lot of us who suffer from PTSD due to childhood abuse do. After a...

So very well said.. And very true. Thank you for the support and reminder RavenGirl. :):hug:

 

[intothelight]

@Ironlady Welcome! :)

I'm starting to move forward. Even if it feels like I am crawling and scratching to just move a centimeter.

That is a very true statement as sometimes it all starts with baby steps and sometimes there are steps back, but recovery and healing takes time and the important thing is the process is moving forward. I hope you find this site helpful.

 

[Ironlady]

@Ironlady Welcome! :)



That is a very true statement as sometimes it all star...

Thank you Intothelight, it's the steps backward that bother me. My thinking pattern tends to be very black and white and I do find it difficult to cope when I do step backwards even when intellectually I know my best strides forward come after the pain of it propels me forward. Learning to be there for all parts in a compassionate way and quieting the self critic isn't easy but I am getting better at being able to instead of shaming all the time which is a definite improvement. Thank you so much for the welcome. It's a pleasure to make your acquaintance.

 

[Ghostybear73]

Welcome to the forum!!!

 

[Ironlady]

Welcome to the forum!!!

Thank you!