Recent content by atthree

"You need to believe in yourself." That's all I remember landing my last job and advice I can give. People with PTSD make the world a better place. You make the world a better place, now go get a job

Yeah, but chase him away :) We have common

@WarBreed, sorry your wife left you. And I don't know why @Echo wants to send you into My Combat. It's our good conscience that gets us to where we are. We get to understand so much about ourselves here, wish you the same

I have had my downs (married 26 yrs.), but I'd start by "What did I do to deserve this, jerk wod?" and then "What did you do, so bad to think you don't deserve me?" God knows, I've/I love so many woman that I thought that deserved better. Then finding out they where treated worse than me and my...

"I know when it's (panic attack) coming" and it happens sooner or later (Later is that we are prepared, know ourselves so well). This seems to be classic for me on remembering things. But remember I have been dealing with this from the age three, through school not knowing.

Been married 26 years and have had PTSD all but 3 years. I do the same thing, thank you for the perspective. I'd rather think it out than say something I'd regret later

The anger gets me on a lie. I think it's because in a stressful situation I blank out and can't remember. So it looks like I lied if asked, What did you see (for example)? Response, "Nothing." But get this when I settle down I remember everything. I tell yeah, this pisses me off, because I look...

I had this reflection of a friend I can't believe everything they say. But yet having PTSD, they really can't believe me either, so this angered me quickly. I feel like a hypocrite, but intentionally to get even with me for something I didn't do consciously. PS: Sorry, if I'm off the beaten...

I hate when my family is happy and I'm not. It's like they are not letting me in the secret. What's worse is when I reflect back and say, "I get it now." Thank God for a forgiving family and one day I plan on making it up to them well enough to reflect back on the why I went out of my way to do so

Happy Birthday @Notsowild. PS: We have a good conscience and people just need to understand that :)

"A haze winds through my thoughts and emotions, separating my true self from them. This haze seems to intersperse ideas of its own, whispered thoughts that suggest my true desire is for my own demise. It is gray, light, and thin, but substantial enough to obscure me from connecting with my own...

I've had so many beautiful moments, that I thought my anxiety ruined at the time. I reflect back on not knowing I had PTSD and the people that were involved. We evolve by forgiving the sap of a tree for leaving :)

I'm sorry, this is happening to you too. It is such a short subject,"It's like remembrance" and I feel I not only live for myself, but the other as well. PS: The site helps me as well

I'm bad on the medication. Not sure if the sleeping is a time that he is reflecting on the past, which is good and bad. He sounds like he is ready to move on and start a new the best he (we all) can. PS:Our conscience always has the best of us all in heart.

@tommytwojays Welcome to the forum and I'm sorry to hear about the mistrust. My PTSD was suppressed until I was in my forties with similar circumstances. It's the "What if...." that works me, even at the age of three. You know just forgiving others has been therapeutic for me. I have a hard...