How Ptsd Has Changed Me.

[RussH]

Many of you have read enought of my story, that I will not bore you with the details again.
Before I was triggered in October I could go on a job interview and not get the job, or do sales work and not make the sale, then move on to the next one.

Now, I find that I go on a job interview, like today, and not get the job, and I am instantly discouraged, and ready to go home and call it a day. And the sad thingi is, that is what I normally do. It's like all the wind is sucked out of my sails by defeat, and then I just feel down and completed lose my motivation.

This really stinks. Why do I so quickly give into defeat? Is this truly another manifestation of my PTSD, or just the fact that my life has been on a low for the past year?

 

[Seasounds]

Is this truly another manifestation of my PTSD, or just the fact that my life has been on a low for the past year?

Low energy is no fun, sorry for your suffering. To answer your question, iounds to me, like it could be both. Yes, this is what happens in times of PTSD aggravations. :confused:

 

[Jane.l]

Sorry you had a crap day - I think perhaps we get so easily discouraged because it's taking so much just to hold it together enough to function - anything thing else just sends me into a tail spin of everything is pointless, hopeless - f**k it I can't do this . I tend to have a very black and white outlook too which I don't think is helpful either something is good and feels right or bad and feels wrong - when perhaps a meh whatever is required .

Hope you have better luck tomorrow

 

[JEKBreatheandBelieve]

Sorry that you feel so defeated after today. You've been in a low for the last year because of PTSD and the low certainly won't protect you from feeling discouraged. Unfortunately, that's how it works. But you can take the time to feel upset about today's interview not going well. Then, you can tell yourself that this does not mean you are a bad person. You can go to bed tonight and wake up tomorrow and try again. You are more than this one interview. It's horrible to have to put yourself through being rejected, I know, I've been there. I went through two summers of being rejected from teaching jobs and in the beginning of the third summer I was hired in the town I teach in and it is the right place for me. At least it has been until PTSD complicated my life. I still believe it is the right place, but I have to work harder now. But I digress. My point is the right job will open up for you. God has a plan for you. (I am praying it doesn't take you two years to find that job though.)

 

[Chava]

I'm sorry to hear about your day and your disappointment. I feel like I cave in easily, too. It feels safer to not have hope sometimes. I try to keep a couple things for myself that I do not give up on, and that helps me day to day...usually things that don't involve others or the option of anyone else giving up on me...like committing to going for a walk every day, or doing Pilates. For a while I did a lot of artwork and it felt like a way to not give up on myself (though I did give up on it, or maybe I'm taking a break?). It also helps to learn something new once in a while (also just on my own, for nobody else, and with no option for rejection). As for everything else, I just keep going. Some days it feels like I'm just surviving, but that feels normal.

Hang in there. You will have better days too.

 

[atthree]

"You need to believe in yourself." That's all I remember landing my last job and advice I can give.

People with PTSD make the world a better place. You make the world a better place, now go get a job

 

[Recovery4Me]

@RussH tell me (if you elect) what are a few of your strengths?
It is good practice for the interview and a good thing to remember when one needs hope. And besides, I would love to hear it should you wish to share.

 

[RussH]

@Recovery4Me. I do have some strengths. In spite of my trauma history, I like people and have good people skills. I am very customer orientated. I am very loyal and dependable. I am a hard worker, and frankly, I am a good cook with the potential of becoming a skilled gourmet chef.

Unfortunately, the restaurant manager who did the interview was a very poor interviewer, one of the worst I have ever seen, and I really think, as soon as he saw I wasn't young he already decided no.

 

[Recovery4Me]

Wonderful and strong considerations!

Also you could consider adding- conflict resolution skills, are politically correct and have perseverance!
Hint-they are strong and true power words that are often searched for with filters for on-line resumes.

As well, you are looking for more than a job: you are searching for the right fit in order to achieve your full potential within the culinary art's field. You wish to find the perfect setting (career) in which to infuse your education & talent into delighting the community.

You sound good to me with some serious first class skills dude!;) Keep your head up searching cuz' you rock!

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I can relate to the discouragement. For me, I get my hopes up too high and when they are dashed I feel so disappointed and my hopes crumble and I feel so hopeless.

Pretty soon I will be looking for a regular job just to get some added income and I am so terrified because it has been so many years since I last worked at a job. Besides the fact that I will be sixty years old in March. I have plans later on to return to college and talk with a career counselor and see what I would fit in with as I do not have a clue.

Plus it is the fact of being rejected that does not help.

Please keep on trying and do not give up. Mabe have a plan B for when you do not get a job that is full of safe comfort for you mabe?