Recent content by cntrymom08466

I don't know why everything is setting me off right now. I'm so weepy. Anniversary of when ex was arrested is not until beginning of May. I just don't get it.

It seems really over the top right now. I just started to cry over something at work and this morning over my just because he said something in a mean way and he was still tired. Ugh

What is dysregulation?

No he doesn't treat me like that usually. He said he didn't even realize he was yelling. I'm not used to emotions you might say. Then some get extreme. I think that was the biggest problem, is not regulating my emotions when they hit. I'm not used to emotions. I was numb for a lot of years...

I have to drive my husband around now because he just had shoulder surgery. We were going to Lowe's at Tulsa hills and he started yelling at me about something I did while driving. I let him go into Lowe's and I just sat in the car and cried the whole time. I felt so worthless. I even had...

I have such mixed feelings about taking the tree down and Christmas and holidays being over. Part of me want to move on to getting back to normal but then part of me doesn't want it to be over. I'm planning on taking my tree down today but even though its not my favorite tree, being a white...

I have been getting this too. Mine comes from violent Christmas in the past because of an ex who is bipolar. I cried about it last night and thought I would be better this morning. But was feeling sad just now. Then I told myself I'm not going to let him ruin another holiday. I used to love...

I don't why I get to feeling like this. I want to love Christmas. I used to. I remember sitting in the dark when I was with Jim and watching the lights on the tree. I'm feeling sad and angry and stressed and idk why. I was excited for Christmas around Thanksgiving but this week I feel like I've...

Thank you everyone. I really needed the feed back today.

I do tend to over think things. Lol this trauma therapy has been a long time coming. I just don't want to mess this up.

I'm here today and just thinking idk whats going on. I have hypoactive thyroid and have been on medication. I messed up and missed some doses I realized this week. Also I've been doing trauma therapy. The kind where you read one of the traumas every day. Well I was doing good and then I started...

Ok I'm not sure where to start. I'll just go. Several times this year I've had a feeling of kind dejavu sort of but its been more about the type of weather. Idk if it makes sense. But when I step outside especially when it is like the first day kind of season. I get this strange feeling of...

It does help to know it's ok to feel like this. I guess I'm angry somewhat that it's happening at all you know. And it being small that I shouldn't make a big deal of it. But its still unsettling. And everyone saying its going to fine. Its nothing. Thats what they said when I had to go for the...

I don't know what is going on. I had to have a biopsy on my breast this morning. Kind of feel like it was pointless. It was about pea sized and they had trouble finding it. They just numbed the area so no anesthesia but for some reason I'm feeling kind of aggravated/angry. I won't know results...

Thanks