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    Angry, sad, intolerant of most everything

    This venting thread really giving me a sense of community rn <3.
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    Wrong fit ? Trauma? Reluctance to grow up? Personality Type? What's the right answer?

    Hey everyone, I hope you all are doing good. My head is a blender right now and I thought I would appreciate people's perceptions of the situation. I posted once before about my current work environment and received a lot of support. For context and summary, I had to decided to take a new role...
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    new age therapist

    Hi, Just feeling the need to vent. This is my 7th therapist 8 years. I live in a context where mental health services are really undeveloped and there are no regulations in place, and it is chaos out there. The first one yelled at me for 20 mins for being late to a session, nos 2 and 5 changed...
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    General Ptsd boyfriend constantly breaks up with me - is something else going on?

    I'm sorry you're going through this. To be honest, you could have been talking about me. It's weird, but at least in my case, in a weird way it's a sign of progress? In that, it shows that I've moved from absolutely 0 trust for anyone (1 mistake and you're out type thinking) to some sort of...
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    Hiding loving feelings /trouble receiving love

    Hi y'all, I am back after a long time. It is good to see familiar screen names as well as the community wisdom. I could use advice or perspectives. I am lucky enough to have a teacher/mentor figure right now who I feel a lot of love for. This is making me go bonkers. I was able to experience...
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    Being retraumatized whereever I work - do safe places exist?

    @Anna59 im sorry i think i missed your comment! im sorry youre experiencingthis as well and i hope you find something that feels doable. @Friday just rereading your comment my friend and it is gold :). Im just the right mix of triggered enough and calm right now to be able to comprehend it and...
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    Old habits die hard, when will the self sabotage end?

    I found the disabiltiy services in my college very helpful. The coordinator would work with me to ask for extensions if i needed them and premailed my peofessors so they were mentally prepared for thefact that i would need extensions. They also linked with me a coach type person who would meet...
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    Overwhelming fear

    Thanks for the reply guys. Really feel like im watching myself hit rock bottom right now and feel incapable of stopping it from happening.
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    Overwhelming fear

    Hi all Having thoughts like people arent safe cant be trusted, cant go in to work and be around people tomorrow, i am not capable of defending myself, if something bad happens i will go into freeze or fawn and just be stuck in a bad situation. Dont know how to come out of this and it feels...
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    Other people don't exist / I don't exist

    Thank you for taking the time to reply all <3 @triptych you're comment makes me think that it is about being disconnected to the person and maybe also a little about being disconnected with the part that is in relationship with the person? I can feel this way about some pretty close people...
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    Talk or don't talk... that's the question

    I wish I knew :) This is a very lonely journey, but forums like this one, and reading the experiences of everyone here makes it more beautiful because it feels like while we're here at least we can stop pretending that shit doesnt suck or that it's easy. For myself, I like being around people...
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    Do i have a bull's eye on my back?

    @blackemerald1 I am pleased I did the asking :). I think even if it doesn't improve the relationship it made me feel less helpless.
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    Other people don't exist / I don't exist

    Hey all, Has anyone ever experienced this feeling? I am not sure if it is a core belief or dissociation or a mix of both. Either way, definitely impacts my behaviour and makes it harder to build relationships. I am unlikely to ask about your cats surgery if my brain is screaming you're an...
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    Do i have a bull's eye on my back?

    Hi both, thanks for your replies. I had to step back from the issue because it was causing me to spiral but am now in a (somewhat better) place to be able to read and take your input in. Black emerald - I have still been listening and providing support to her when she shares with me as best I...
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