Recent content by ronin47

So I was spending Fourth of July with my dad and his family (ie him, his wife and my two little half brothers). Things were going fine until my dad made a comment indirectly related to my weight. He told my little brother, "Your sister will eat everything in sight." That stung. It brought back a...

When I talked to my doctor about going off my medications, it was because I was graduating university, wouldn't have access to him as before, didn't have a job lined up, didn't know where my income was going to come from, and the last thing I wanted was to have to go off my medications without...

What you are feeling is certainly natural and normal. It seems to me that you understand that you must talk about the abuse at some point in order to heal. I would suggest thinking long and hard about what details of the abuse you would feel...I won't say comfortable...able to share with her...

That is very encouraging to hear that you found something that really works for you. I will see if I can maybe find part of it and check it out. That is good that you are taking a balanced, multi-faceted approach to your treatment too. That was a valuable lesson I learned pretty early on; do not...

Yeech. Good grief. Waiting is obnoxious. Just makes you want shout, "You're a doctor not the President!" Good for you for taking care of yourself though and chosing to avoid a stressful situation. I know for me I always had a hard time telling the secretary or whoever made the appointments...

You should've put this in the "Accomplishments" forum. Really you ought to be so proud of yourself. You made it through the first time and are going to go back and do it again. Not everyone can do what you have just done. You did some very admirable self care when you called your T to follow up...

You have to remember it first, plain and simple. That's the hard part for so many people. But as other posters pointed out, your trauma being repressed does not mean it isn't affecting you and your behavior. You are still going to hurt until you heal. You can't heal until your remember, and...

To be totally honest it sounds like your relationship with him was never a healthy one in the first place. You're better off without him. I've had relationships like that where we were close for a long time because we ignored the bad things in our relationship but we finally reached a breaking...

You're not a weak person, you're psychological skin has been burned and burned skin cringes at the slightest touch. I understand the feeling of impatience, wanting the burn to heal quicker, but it must heal at its own pace. The only thing you can do is take what self-care measures you can...

Yes, there most certainly is hope. You've made it this far and you deserve a medal for doing so. Many of us here can empathize with the on-and-off desire to just throw in the towel, and none of us want you to throw in that towel. Welcome and please feel free to message me anytime.

The first thing that comes to mind when I read this is an account I heard of a toddler, barely two years old, biting himself. He was living in a violent home and the explanation that was given was that, even at that age, if external stimulus is horrifying and frightening enough, a person will do...

I think you'll find plenty of people on this forum who are going through a similar situation. Their families put them through Hell and now they refuse to acknowledge it. The Hell is made that much worse by the lack of acknowledgement. I count myself as lucky that I've gotten even a small amount...

It's possible. I got PTSD from an abusive childhood, but as other members have pointed out, there are a list of symptoms that make up PTSD. It is not possible to know just based on one symptom or another. If you really feel like this is a possiblity see a psychiatrist or a psychologist who is...

It certainly makes sense. You are making yourself emotionally vulnerable to someone when you talk about your feelings which is often very nerve wracking. However, your brain isn't thinking, "emotional vulnerability" when it has a reaction like that. No, the brain is much more simplistic in that...

Oh honey, you are nowhere near the only person to have these kinds of fantasies. To this day, even though I consider myself to be in a much better place than I was a few short years ago, I imagine myself in situations very similar to the one you described. Odds are since so many people have...