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I ended up not going at all and I think it was a good decision. I'm really a party pooper in those types of situations (according to my 14 yr old 😂). I received a report that every one had a fun time and all was well. I think I made the right decision letting the older ones go and younger...

Background... my daughter suffered severe burns in a house fire 8 years ago, she is now 9 years old. Current issue... I have anxiety, yes. But this situation continues to cause me severe stress even though I have tried to endure over and over. My sister loves to take all her nieces and nephews...

Yes, thank you! There are ways to care without worrying and I should probably try focusing on those more. Crying and imagining the worst probably doesn't help much honestly. I like that old bandaid commercial that said covering is caring. I always think of that when I cover my patients in the...

Thank you so much. She is better, the fever is gone and the belly/back pain is gone. The rash doesnt look any worse today. It seems like I always have to have something to freak out about. Maybe I think worrying is the same as caring? Yes, that sounds accurate. I fear reliving the past. My...

A little back story... my daughter was seriously burned in a house fire 7 years ago, I was the one that got her out. She spent 5 months in the hospital get skin grafts on half her body. She will be 8 this month. This week, my daughter was sick with belly pain, back pain, fever 103, I took...

I like to come here and read from my past self. When I'm feeling low, it reminds me of how far I've come. It reminds me of how much better I have it today. How wonderful my life is today. Yes, depression creeps in. It tries to tell me that I have no reason to be happy. It tries to tell me...

Still fighting... fighting anxiety... panic attacks... negative thoughts... depression... Tonight is hard. My older daughter is in the ER with my husband getting a broken arm looked at. She caught herself wrong on the trampoline. He's been gone over 5 hours. His phone is dead. Already had a...

In 2012, I had a missed miscarriage (I was pregnant for 7 weeks after my baby had passed away at 6 weeks along). During that pregnancy, before I even had a confirmed miscarriage, I started having anxiety and panic attacks. I found out the baby had passed away when I was 10 weeks along. After...

My anxiety is so high right now :( I worry about so many things... so many things that I really don't have control over. How do I let go of these worries? I wish I was just carefree like I was when I was a kid. I should know more than anyone that worrying doesn't keep horrific things from...

I want to forget last year. I want to forget the fire. I want to forget the fear. I want to forget my baby being burned, her being in the hospital for 5 months. I want to forget the ventilator, the feeding tube, the trach, the bandages... But this has taken over our lives. Where we live, where...

Today, my little 2 1/5 year old miracle said a 5 word sentence! She said, "I lay down dis side". She wanted to lay between me and her daddy :) Wow! How far she has come! Amazing and wonderful <3 She still has physical and occupational therapy 3 days a week. She has several surgeries...

Still pulling here. It's so annoying. Why is it addictive? It's like I have to be doing something with my hands. I need more peace. I need to be peaceful.

Hello, I have similar symptoms, as a result of living through 2 house fires. I will spare you the details, but will tell you about my recovery. I started seeing a therapist several months ago, and it has been wonderful for me. It is so helpful to talk to someone who can explain to you what is...

Reading that first post brought tears to my eyes. I had forgotten that pain that I felt. Thank you God for bringing me so far! After we suffer so deeply and painfully, normal life is so peaceful and sweet. Normal days are beautiful. We can look at our loved ones and cherish them. Love them. Hold...

I think I need to journal more when I'm in a good mood, to even things out, and to remind myself that there ARE good days. Today, the nurse brought my little one a curious George doll. She loves it . The speech therapist put on her passy-meer valve and I could hear her jabbering all the way...