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    Great, something new to stress over! - The tiniest of things are now leaving my stomach in knots.

    Thank you so much for replying. It all makes sense to me, and your article on the stress cup was really interesting. I've always been a bit of a self confessed nerd 🤣, and proud of it! I'm not particularly clever in all fairness, I always seemed to have to work harder than my peers to gain...
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    Uncontrollable thoughts about my purpose

    I'm so sorry to hear you're having these constant thoughts. It sounds really distressing and confusing. I'm no expert, however not knowing your "purpose" other than what you've always believed is a huge part of my own struggles. The truth is, we should all be allowed to make/find our own...
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    Great, something new to stress over! - The tiniest of things are now leaving my stomach in knots.

    So as some of you may have seen, I recently explained some of the reasons for my trauma. I'm still working on the whole not comparing your trauma to anyone else's, but hey, it's a start just posting it here! Well, last week in the UK was baby loss awareness week (I volunteer for and run our...
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    You Know You Have PTSD When...

    ......when someone else suffers a similar trauma to you and you're mentally and physically screwed for days .......when 2.30am is no longer a bizarre time to be awake .......when stress related heartburn is your new normal .......when your therapist sees you more than your own family...
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    You Know You Have PTSD When...

    Omg no.7 had me in stitches!!!
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    Finally opening up

    No harm there at all, honestly. I really appreciate your honestly and logically acknowledging that grief is painful. And you hit the nail on the head with all the plans and hopes for the future. Don't don't loose just one person in your life, you loose all the firsts, the milestones, who they'll...
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    Finally opening up

    Oh definitely, over the years where life expectancy grew, our ability to deal with death significantly lessened! In victorian days my baby would have been posed for photos with us, dressed beautifully and familiy/friends visiting with condolences and goodbyes to our little girl. Instead it was...
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    Finally opening up

    Ironically, the medical profession weren't half as bad with the judgement as the rest of society was (and still is in some respects). Its almost like the death of a child is just too horrible to think about so no one wants to hear it and wants you to be quiet. I'm grateful things are slowly...
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    Finally opening up

    OK, so this is scaring the hell out of me even just writing this, but I'm hoping writing it down will help with 1, my own fear of judgement and 2, be at least part of processing the trauma. I've tried to write this here a million times and keep deleting it. I'll apologise now because this is...
  10. J

    Recent therapy and now nightmares - scared to sleep

    Hi. I too recently started therapy, and nightmares was something T warned me about, just to be aware this may well happen, however she said not to be worried or scared of them as its just the brains way of processing what's coming up in therapy so whilst it's not nice for us in the moment, it's...
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    Hospital green scissors

    I'm kind of just discovering that now, trauma treatment unravelling other trauma that I didn't even realise was trauma. Oh the irony eh! I knew it sucked and was an awful experience, but I guess I didn't realise how much it affected me. I hate playing the waiting game so so much! Crossing finger...
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    Hospital green scissors

    Thank you arfie. The irony of this for me is that I had sought out peer support and private therapy fairly soon after the bulk of the trauma happened, worked my butt off being open and honest about the trauma and my feelings...........7yrs later get told I need ptsd therapy. Talk about head...
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    Started "skin picking" since EMDR

    Hey, how are you doing at the moment? I'm no doctor or expert, buy believe me when I say skin picking is incredibly common. I work in the beauty industry and have a few colleagues who work as podiatrists, and few friends who are senior nurses who also offer cosmetic enhancement treatments as a...
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    Hospital green scissors

    I'm so sorry you're having these dark thoughts right now. It must be very difficult still working around areas where your trauma started. The majority of my trauma was also from hospital (as a patient), but I've not had to visit that specific part of the hospital as yet. I hope you know how...
  15. J

    What stopped you from exercising and how do you overcome it?

    Interestingly this was something I brought up with T initially as something I currently find very difficult that I'd like to change. I think some of you have hit the nail on the head.....feeling exhausted, oit of breath, stressed is really difficult for me these days. I think I now strugle to...
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    Sexual attraction towards abuser/people who remind me of abuser

    The funny thing is, as soon as I'd posted that comment I thought what if someone felt pressured to say yesbut actually didnt want physical interaction? Lets face it, I'm sure we've all done/agreed to something we've been asked at some point in out lives because of pressure. Such a mind field...
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    Sexual attraction towards abuser/people who remind me of abuser

    I'm so sorry you were upset by your therapists actions. Consent is everything, that goes without saying (or at least ot should), but when someone is talking about trauma it's seems to me that it should be of the upmost importance. Even if it is just a well ment touch to the shoulder, and what...
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    Sexual attraction towards abuser/people who remind me of abuser

    Sending you so much love and support. I must be incredibly difficult. You're doing amazing being able to see, accept and show compassion, and I hope you are able to see that too xxx Ah ok, get ya. Is it bad that I'm grateful this doctor is not your T? I 100% agree with you that cutting all ties...
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    What Is On Your Mind Right This Second?

    Oh lionheart, this breaks my heart. Right, first things first, for those who hate you, dislike you or even judge silently just because of your sexuality, well I say that's their issue, not yours. I very much appreciate the difficulties of lgbtqa+ within religion, but I promise you, there are far...
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    Dreading next session - I'm worried everything is being "brought to the surface" and I can't mask or continue daily life

    I can absolutely appreciate that, and I'm sure many who go into any kind of therapy end up dealing with more than intended when they first went in! Let's face it, we've all got stuff. Unfortunately I'm in the UK, and currently 20 is the absolute max I'll be entitled too. Wish I could go private...
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    Complete avoidance of anything too overwhelming

    Couldn't agree more! I've worked with a lot of Bridal parties and jeez the stress is real for many. Marriage, babies, moving. All the biggest stressors in such a short space of time, no wonder you're feeling overwhelmed hun! You've been through so much hun, I think my biggest piece of advice...
  22. J

    Dreading next session - I'm worried everything is being "brought to the surface" and I can't mask or continue daily life

    I think it's mostly talk therapy with some cbt, at least for now. T has suggested the maximum allowed of 20 sessions because of the complexity of trauma. I must admit, I found the thought of 20 weeks to be quite daunting at first, but I guess she wouldn't recommend that if not needed because the...
  23. J

    Relationship In a 3 year long distance relationship with a veteran with PTSD, he is now avoiding coming to see me after 3 years of not seeing each other

    Had you discussed moving to his country at all? I wonder how he would feel.about you visiting him for a short while, rather than him visiting you? Today I had a meeting to attend (very simple, only 20-30 mins long and had my fiancé with me). I've done this sort of meeting a million times before...
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    Dreading next session - I'm worried everything is being "brought to the surface" and I can't mask or continue daily life

    Thank you for your comforting words, and ironically tonight I remembered something from a very long time ago and I'm now wondering if that was, at least in part, the start of my trauma. Part of the complexity for me is my trauma is so intertwined with overwhelming grief that it feels impossible...
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    Sexual attraction towards abuser/people who remind me of abuser

    I'm so sorry you find yourself in this situation. So much of others replies are absolutely spot on, and by the sounds of it, adult you knew that deep down, but we all need a sounding board now and then to help process/rationalise our thoughts and feelings. Something I will add is regardless of...
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