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Sometimes I feel so silly because my behaviors in therapy are often so child-like. Does anyone else have experiences like this? I have a child-like love for my therapist....so innocent & pure. When I first discussed my feelings for her I explained that it felt so WRONG. The feelings I have for...

I had an awful dream last night. One of those dreams that felt SO real. I woke up with tears streaming down my face & the tears haven’t stopped all day. I dreamed about my family. Actually, I shouldn’t call them my family...maybe just label them bio-mess! My mom, who passed away some time ago...

It’s been over a year since I’ve tried EMDR. Last time was kind of a disaster, I dissociated so bad & then would go home & be a complete mess with so many memories surfacing. Nightmares & panic attacks increased. I’ve been working closely with my therapist since then. I feel like I have tools...

Has anyone here tried the weighted blankets for help with anxiety, nightmares/sleep? I’ve been looking at them for a long time...they aren’t cheap so I just wondered how much they help. I hate to pay that much just to TRY something, but if it works it would be worth it. I wonder if it gets too...

i email my T pretty often. She has almost always responded. If not immediately, she usually responds eventually. I haven’t received an email from her in over a week. I’ve emailed her several times, nothing emergent but normally she would have responded. I am heartbroken & in need of some...

I think I about to be very brave & vulnerable in therapy today. I almost emailed what i wanted to say, but decided its something that I really need to speak about with her. For anyone who has read my previous posts, speaking can be very very difficult for me in therapy. I will take any...

Has anyone ever had any experience with their child being a trigger? My son is a teenager now & looks just like his abusive father who we left when he was 4. There are times when things get heated & he can be verbally & has also been physically aggressive (we are getting help & addressing this...

My T told me that what is happening during sessions when I absolutely can’t speak (or when I do, it’s barely audible), is called selective mutism. She said she has seen it before in children, not so much in adults. I remember as a child feeling the same way with my parents...wanting to speak but...

I know I’ve read multiple posts about people having difficulty opening up & speaking during therapy sessions. For whatever reason, I have a terrible time being able to just talk when I go to therapy. I don’t even understand it. I can talk with ease anywhere else....I can even talk to my T with...

I’ve never really thought about suicide before. I mean, I guess I have but it was just fleeting thoughts. Right this very second I want nothing more than to just disappear from this world. I’m in a mess that I’ve caused myself and I feel like such a failure. I feel like I’m ruining my son’s...

Any suggestions for good books about healing from trauma/abuse (childhood & adult)? I need a new one. I’ve read The Body Keeps the Score, The Courage to Heal, & From Surviving to Thriving.

So I’ve made some pretty big mistakes over the last few years. My coping mechanisms just all went to crap when I moved closer to family & realized I couldnt count on my siblings for support. I never realized how necessary it is to have support when you are a single mom (not to mention battling...

In a situation where the abuser is a family member, & the past is already out in the open & everyone knows, how important is it to face the abuser? In my situation it's a family member's husband. She knows my side of the story & I'm sure she has heard his. She is suggesting that we get together...

One of my biggest problems is knowing when to walk away from people or things that aren't beneficial to me. Since I've never been in therapy I'm having a hard time deciding whether or not this is working, or if I'm the one doing something wrong. I've been seeing this T for almost a year (with...

I think because I'm realizing how much narcissism I've been surrounded by my entire life, I'm so paranoid about being a narcissist myself. I've been reading about covert narcissism. Lately I am focused on myself & my healing, & I've made some selfish choices in the process & hurt people that I...

I'm jealous of people who have families who are close & supportive. I've always kept so many secrets. & now that my secrets are out, I've lost both of my big sisters who I have always adored. I lost my mom 10 years ago & have made the decision to put distance between my dad & I, because it...

Has anyone else turned to alcohol to manage symptoms? It seems like I was better off when alcohol was my only vice....before I started psychotropics. The two don't mix. Makes me want to stop all meds & just go back to drinking. At least I was functional.

I've jeopardized my career with my poor choices/coping mechanisms. Now I am scrambling to get another job as a nurse to support myself & my son. I feel like such a failure. A failure as a nurse, a mom, a breadwinner....I feel like maybe all of the times that I heard I would never make it in life...

Has anyone ever emailed your T in a moment of desperation, or feeling like you need to be heard, then felt incredibly embarrassed/needy for sending it? I have been very reluctant in therapy to open up at all, so when it all comes rushing out in an honest email I feel embarrassed. I don't want...

Last time I posted here I just got home from my first hospitalization. Since then I've spent 63 days in county jail. Lost my job. Thankfully I still have my home, my child, my dog, a man who loves me....I'm left clawing my way back up...any encouragement will be appreciated.

I was hospitalized for the very first time. SO scary. Hardest five days of my life. I don't want to go down this road. I don't want to un-ravel. I'm so afraid of myself now...afraid of my ability to cope with all of this. I don't want to become unable to function. I've got to stay strong...

Left therapy today after a really tough EMDR session & my entire body felt weak & shaky. I just drove & drove & drove like I didn't even know where I was going or how to get home. I'm still not quite sure I've got it all together enough to even type out what I'm feeling. This is so hard. My...

I am going to start on a very low dose of Seroquel for sleep & was wondering if anyone had any issues with weight gain on 25mg? Also wondering how well it works for sleep!

Has anyone had any success in treating PTSD with the stellate ganglion nerve block? Just curious!

I am realizing more & more that there are SO many things that I've never shared with anyone. My T is gradually pulling it out of me little by little, but there are things that I just CAN'T say. She asked me if I thought I would ever just be able to talk about it matter-of-factly....I don't...