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I’m trying to remind myself to hover above that threshold of depression. It takes so much effort just to avoid sinking to what feels like a point of no return. I hate myself even though I try to act like I don’t. I hate that I can’t live up to my dream of being the calm, poised individual in all...

My son is having a friend over and they asked to get Burger King. I took them. My boy gently called me out when I was too intense during ordering... I snapped out of the aggressive mode, but was still feeling it. When I got home, I felt that familiar heart burn sensation and a panic attack. I...

My therapist asked me to write a letter to my soon to be ex, which I wouldn’t actually send. We’ve been separated for 2 yrs and have barely communicated, occasionally texting about child logistics. During our separation, I was diagnosed with PTSD, but he doesn’t know. Nor does he care. I...

Next week, I finally have an appt with my therapist (who was out for a couple of months). Today, I finally acknowledged that I was depressed. The main crisis - finding a job and health insurance - has been averted. Sort of. I still have some paperwork to turn in for the health insurance. But...

I can’t believe it... at my new job, a young man has been flirting with me. I am nearly 50 and have ptsd due to sexual/physical abuse. My boss noticed the flirtation and I told he it felt uncomfortable. She left for a bit and came back, letting me know that she spoke to someone about and that I...

I am writing on here because I need someone to talk to but have no one to call or sit with in person. Thank you for listening... I have been diagnosed with ptsd and in treatment (although my T has been away for over a month now - I’m waiting for her to get back at the end of August). I started...

I have been single for nearly 2 years and diagnosed with ptsd over a year ago. Recently, I decided to see if I can still have relationships. I went on one date and the guy was over-the-top hyper. It made me very uncomfortable. He also started bring up sexual things in conversation and I could...

I met a guy that says all the right things. But I am noticing how paranoid and untrusting I am. I know who I am alone. But I don’t know how to be in a relationship. I have a very strong personality and a lot of intensity - I wonder how much of that is there to scare prople away? I am going on a...

After getting laid off, I was put in a panic about how I was going to support me and my two kids. After hustling to apply for jobs, I got a contract position. I also have 2 potential other opportunities if this one doesn’t work out. One would think I am relieved, but now I am on a whole new...

I have been in intensive treatment for ptsd with a wonderful therapist who has helped me a lot. In addition to medication, she is my counselor. Well, she had to leave for 6 weeks - I’ve been seeing her 2x per week. She did refer me to her colleague in case I need help. Of course I need help. Her...

I am diagnosed with ptsd and getting professional help. Not working for the past month has gradually calmed down some of my symptoms. However, I am having a hard time supporting my son emotionally during the divorce process (which started over a year ago). After visiting with his dad for dinner...

I am a teacher and took last few weeks of school as medical leave. My ptsd flared up and I went through 3 weeks of a day program. My meds are set. I have a therapist. My money runs out in two months and there are debts. So, like any responsible single mother of 2, I began a job search. I reached...

Ptsd is my primary diagnosis, along with a laundry list of a few others. For the past decade my sex drive gradually disappeared. It has been completely gone for several years now and I am 50. Has anyone ever come back from this complete lack of sex drive back to intimacy? I’m wondering if I can...

I’ve been discharged from the day treatment program and will be seeing my psychiatrist/therapist on Monday. I am noticing just how much I sleep - all night and at least 2/3 of the day since discharge. I met with a career counselor, revised my resume, and applied to two jobs. That felt good...

I have cut off all ties with my mother about six years ago. I wanted to stay in touch with my father, but I don’t know what my mother told him - he stopped communicating with me. My brother has depression and probably some other diagnoses - he just stays in a small room in my parents’ house...

Long weekends are extremely hard. Usually I’ve been able to get a few hours of rest and talk myself into getting up and doing things. But this is the second day I can’t get out of bed. I feel paralyzed. The reality of my situation hit me - my life is not what i hoped it would be. I have no job...

I’ve been in treatment for ptsd. Whatever got brought up put me in a deep depression to the point where I haven’t been able to get out of bed. My younger son stopped by - his dad with the new girlfriend outside - to pick up sneakers for a hike. It was like being hit with a sledgehammer. My ex...

I’m in my early 50s going through a divorce with two kids. Today, I learned that I lost my job. After everything that has happened to me, I feel like I’m not going to recover from this job loss. I have no strength left to keep going and to keep trying - the world confirms that no matter how...

I started a day treatment program last week. It was difficult being around people all day, so I came home very tired. It felt like a full day of stressful work, even though there was meditation and relaxation. It is very difficult to be around that many people all day. I supose it’s better than...

My ptsd symptoms were triggered by a mess of events all coming together and causing so much stress that now my switch has turned off. I went into dissociation from all life responsibilities. My psychiatrist wanted me to go into partial in November, but I wanted to hang in there. Whennthe switch...

I am a teacher and literally one month or so away from the end of the school year. Unfortunately my ptsd symptoms have made it difficult for me concentrate, prepare meaningfully, and even show up to work. I have two absent dats left for the year. However, they can fire me for not attending...

I recently joined this forum because the things I feel I don’t want to share with anyone in my life. It’s just me with two kids - 1 in college, and another in elementary school. I have one true friend, fir whom I am very grateful. I have some descent colleagues. This year everything seems to...

It’s been a year since I separated from my husband and several months since I filed for divorce. Our son lives mostly with me. I told my ex that I had trauma and that’s why I couldn’t have sex. He said I didn’t meet his needs. Now I’ve learned that he has been already dating and wants my son to...

When the flashbacks became unbearable, I began to overeat. It wasn’t too long until I started throwing up after eating. If I throw up enough, I feel a sense of release - like I threw up something disgusting and it’s out of my system. After about 10 or more times of eating and throwing up, I feel...

I told my soon to be ex that I was sexually abused as a child (among other forms of abuse). My memories were repressed and came back in two very intense chunks. I didn’t want to have sex with him. I had no interest and even a revulsion. Eventually I asked for a divorce but only because I knew he...