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Anything for her. Sorry my dissociation/parts have had an active day, a very hard day. That's why I keep messing up.

My strength came for my love of my child. I tried keeping my focus on her because I support her and do an

Thank you. It was horrible. But my strength

2.5 years of waiting for the trial. The trial for the sexual assult against my child and its been torturous. I am so scared to see that thing again...

Off the rocker. My angry parts are mean and feel dangerous. The trial. I'm testifying as well as my child. I'm only doing this for my child. No where can I fathom seeing the less than human thing who caused harm to so many people. But its so much more. Layers and layers of past history buried...

I have many parts and each one has their own personality. They can all get very dysregulated for a variety of reasons but within hours or days they settle down. But not the angry parts. They like to sabatoge any progress and absolutely hate hearing my T mention anything positive. In fact, they...

Without going over the deep end and only screwing yourself in the end-every time? To shut my mouth and say nothing portrays the picture of everything being fine. Or, to ask for more help only feeds into the depression, anxiety, PTSD, DID, and borderline behaviours right? How invalidating because...

It's such a horrible feeling and not only do I get to feel it, but so do my parts. All in a variety of ages. It's the feeling of no control. The walls of the room seem to be nothing but mush and with the dissociation I feel like I'm in my own world. Coming out of that sucks. I have skills...

If I can somehow figure out how not to care then things would be a lot different. If I wasn't so selfish then things would be different. If I could just stop my head from spinning things would be a lot different. If I could just stop being me then things would be a lot different. I missed the...

I dissociate. A lot. And have consistently more recently for the last 2 years. Now I'm left having no clue who I am, who I want to be and who I was. I have horrible memory problems from going away. I'm working hard at becoming more aware. But, how do I love myself when I don't know who I am?

One can only hope I guess. Clearly I am full on DID but perhaps since I've had it my whole life I'm struggling to communicate it.

Thank you. Been trying to distract and stay busy knowing tomorrow is work and its become very hard..

Yesterday was yesterday. Not a good day. I have DID. And many other diagnoses such as borderline. My young parts are experiencing a variety of emotions at their age. Yesterday the other parts were out of control. Besides self harming, they had little to no hope. Like giving up. It's scary for...

Thank you. They appreciate it even if your a stranger. They feel so and scared. Knowing someone out there is aware sometimes is all thats needed

My littles. Ever so sad. Confused. Pushed away time and time again. Left feeling like they can't trust anyone for fear they too will leave. And another heart broken. The rest of us try and console her all day long. Does anyone hear us? We don't fit in with the day to day life. So discouraged...

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My head aches, and my shoulder muscles ache. My everything aches. I'm tired of living. I'm tired of always disappointing those I love. I see and feel the frustration. Because some of my inside parts have already started badgering me. I require less than a min explanation. Don't carry on. We go...

I was in DBT, twice. Parts of me know them and apply them but other ones either don't understand them or refuse. That's the thing. I have a lot of parts swirling around. I don't want t, I like mine. But, this adds to everything else. It's ok. I am told by others that we're meaningless and this...

10 years but it's been like this for the last 2 years roughly

Ok so let me try and explain. I have a multitude of dx but having borderline and DID sucks. I think I'm in trauma therapy twice weekly. That's the key word- twice. Getting through daily until the next appt sometimes feels excruciatingly slow. That's pre holiday and winter. Now that winter has...

Is it normal to of had this rating/scale done a year ago and my T is giving it to me again? Do you think its to see if progress was made and where or, since my memory is crap for most everything but not of other stuff...sometimes my parts have entirely different things to share so a lot gets...

10 years of therapy and I've yet to make eye contact or even reveal my face when discussing painful things. But, I'm dissociating basically. I have no comprehension how someone can show their face or even cry when talking about things. I am ashamed by so much and the expressions shown on my face...

I usually wake up very early with anxiety. I get ready, and maybe pick up a few things around the house. Then leave. Take the same way, stopping at the same places since I allote extra time to get there. Once I arrive in the same parking spot every time. I brush my hair, put germ juice on as...

It's awful. Always has. I have DID with an array of many parts. All are very different, varying in age so despite some who understand it and would be able to explain it perfectly. But, the younger ones feel very different about it and struggle. So, its not just me and I'm ashamed. My very best...

She said it was about 100 questions with answers being "never" "sometimes" etc.