Yesterday was yesterday. Not a good day. I have DID. And many other diagnoses such as borderline. My young parts are experiencing a variety of emotions at their age. Yesterday the other parts were out of control. Besides self harming, they had little to no hope. Like giving up. It's scary for the rest. I reached out to my T Thursday afternoon and she returned my call but I missed it. The mistake made- emailed her telling her briefly what was going on. In the end although nice, I was reminded email is only to confirm appts etc, not this. I understand why. But, some parts are impulsive, and others are desperate for validation. I knew I wasn't supposed to do that. I should just remove it. I'm worried and embarrassed to see my t again. Years ago, same thing happened. I loose control. Feel so isolated. Like I don't fit in with the world. Spent all day dissociated and ashamed. To make matters worse, my marriage is crumbling and I received the notice for the upcoming trial of sexual assult against my daughter. What made my world change two years ago....and I can barely function..