Today was the day i've had enough

[Punky143]

My head aches, and my shoulder muscles ache. My everything aches. I'm tired of living. I'm tired of always disappointing those I love. I see and feel the frustration. Because some of my inside parts have already started badgering me. I require less than a min explanation. Don't carry on. We go away. Yes, I apparently have a trauma history. Some of known, most not other than blips. I am nothing at work. Nothing but the low person to demand things to and left out of the team for everything. Then I go home never to leave work parking lot without getting a text or 2. Then the night wisps away and back in bed to do it all over again. But I can't. My heart is broken times a million. And it came crashing down this morning

 

[ladee]

I can hope that you writing how you are feeling helped... you ARE heard, and you DO matter...I have been where you are so many times.. I so totally understand... that feeling of simply taking up space and oxygen on this planet... I am grateful I let it pass...because each time I made it to the other side... I found out that I really am stronger than I thought, smarter than I thought, and started caring more about what I thought of me, and not using the distorted mirrors of others to reflect back to me...

I understand where you are... hope it gets a little lighter for you... you DO matter, gentle hugs if you accept.

 

[Punky143]

I can hope that you writing how you are feeling helped... you ARE heard, and you DO matter...I have been...

Thank you

 

[Deleted member 44240]

Yes, you’re definitely heard! Wishing and praying for your strength...

 

[Kay Mouse]

You are cared about. Even though these exchanges are taking place over the Internet, the positive intent is still there. I acknowledge and validate your humanity. Myself, I wish there were ways to meet other people near where I live who have been affected my trauma, but there are no such opportunities. So the Internet is the next best thing, even though it is not as meaningful as a face to face interaction. I hope you know there are people who care.

 

[whiteraven]

Thinking of you, @Punky143. I hope you are able to take the weekend and distance yourself from the stuff at work. I know what it feels like to be nothing there and it just adds to everything else.