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I just worked out and was walking back from the track when my own thoughts triggered me. I felt unsafe and continuously scanned the environment for threats until I was back in my room. I live in a city, so it's not totally senseless to be vigilant, but scanning the shadows under cars in a...

It feels so nice to have this outpouring of support. I'm seeing a trauma specialist every Friday, which has been amazing. I feel so much less alone in dealing with everything I've been going through the last 20 years. The reason my symptoms are so much worse this week is because we've really...

I'm feeling really afraid right now for no discernible reason, and have all afternoon. I need to do my schoolwork and have a soccer game later, but all I want to do is hide away and do some self care activities. I'm experiencing burnout and dreading this next week of school. I know right now...

I have pretty good sleep hygiene in the evenings because I have narcolepsy, but yeah, getting up right away will probably help. Thanks for the tip! Update: My doctors increased my antidepressant. Hopefully in 6-8 weeks I'll be doing much better!

Thank you for all the gentle hugs @ladee! I slept some more and that helped a little. Scheduling rest times is a really good idea. I take a nap midday anyway because I have narcolepsy, but I think I need to "save my spoons" and do less each day. One reason I don't want to do a reduced course...

Yesterday was the first day of my fall semester of college after a year of medical leave. The amount of walking and cognitive function I had to muster was really depleting. I woke up early this morning and feel deeply sad and intermittently suicidal. My body hurts so much I don't even want to...

@theshadowoftheliving It's hard for me to understand, too. I don't know why those parts are so diametrically opposed. I read that the angry/violent/aggressive part often emulates a past abuser. I never considered multiple personalities and don't believe I have the disorder, but I have noticed...

I can relate; I was parentified too. My parents supported my sister financially after she lost her minimum-wage job because she drank too much. It really sucks being a parent to so many people that can't reciprocate and don't meet any of your needs. It sucks doing everything on your own without...

@theshadowoftheliving Similar to what @BlueOrange said, from what I know, dissociation is your body's way of hiding from you what you can't yet handle. Maybe your body is letting you know about them because you're making progress and are ready to contend with them. It sounds really scary to...

I don't know enough about dissociative disorders to know what happened, so forgive me if I'm wrong, but it seems to me to be an advantage that you can interact with the parts. That you were able to calm the scared part of you is wonderful! You might even be able to try arguing with the part that...

I'm so sorry you're experiencing this nightmare, especially in such close quarters! I've been on Effexor before and it's a drag to taper off, so I know you can't be feeling well. I'd be happy to talk if you want; feel free to message me! :) Hoping you sleep well tonight!

Thanks so much for all your insights!!! I'll definitely start reading books on PTSD. I'm guessing I haven't overcome my fear of the facts because my feelings shut down automatically, so I'll ask my therapist about that. I'll keep up the writing and self care as well. Much appreciated!

When I was diagnosed with PTSD, I wasn't really told what I need to do to get better. I've read about the condition, and know I have to relax, take it easy, exercise, and talk with my trauma specialist. I've read running and music therapy reduce PTSD symptoms. Is self-care and talking the extent...

Thanks so much @Lotis!! :)))

Aw, @UniqueSunflower. :( That does sound like a really tough aspect of a relationship of trauma survivors. Sorry it didn't work out, though I am glad you feel somewhat relieved and are most committed to your own recovery.

Hi @Whispering_Truth. Thanks for the advice. I told him about all of it, and he responded with immense kindness and understanding. Still, I am a big believer in animal friendships as well, and think investing emotional energy in animals is a really good idea. I'm glad you found such an...

Way to go! The unfortunate circumstance doesn't diminish such a huge accomplishment in the slightest, and you have a better attitude than I thought possible about the setback. Feel better soon!

Jeez.. I feel awful that you had to experience that. My dad did the whole "you're so lucky I saved for your education" bit too and focuses on his own feelings. Like you said, emotional abuse of that degree is every bit as bad as physical or sexual abuse. How often do you talk to him?

My dad won't admit to any of it. He said "that's the most preposterous thing I ever heard." My mom did eventually and started seeing a therapist, thank goodness. Do your parents?

@FrankM, I'm sorry you had such similar experiences. :/ Not really, actually, though he would brandish anger in a very intimidating way. I was such a goody-two-shoes that there was very little for which he could yell at me, unless he lumped me in with my sister. He made unkind comments about our...

Hi, @BellaAngelo . I'm really sorry things didn't work out with you and the man with PTSD, but it's probably for the best because this new guy sounds great. I hope what you've read here helps you too and that you don't have to worry as much about someone leaving you.

Ok, I'll tell him then. He's really a stand-up guy and seems to care about me a great deal. I'd marry him. :inlove: :hug: You're so sweet. I really appreciate this. <3

@FrankM , no problem! No. What I remember is 95% psychological abuse, and the worst of it was when my sister and I were young so that we were scared into submission. I remember him mocking her when she said "Dad. No. Stop. Please. Really! I mean it!!" in her tone of voice and everything. She...

That's really hard. I'm hoping locking your doors so you know you won't encounter her and distracting yourself will help. You're very kind for taking the boy in.

Hey @isitmyfualt Wow, that's a really traumatic story. I'm so sorry you suffered all of that! You're right it will be a long road to recovery, but you're in the right place and have a great attitude. I have tons of hope that you will find myPTSD helpful. I have a history of complex trauma too...