Wow, all of the different posts I have read have been so insightful. I am really reluctant to get back into another relationship after having so many faltered ones although I've learned something from each of them. Part of me wants to get back on the horse yet another part of me is content and less stressed focusing on my career and just living life. I felt so hopeful about this last relationship though when my boyfriend went through a series of losses, his symptoms became full blown and everything seemed to blow up in our faces. My mom had been in the hospital with a medical illness and neither of us had the energy to mend / repair or be there for one another. Early in the relationships we were communicating well, expressing our needs, validating one another though there were other parts (his what appeared to be an inability to commit) that made it really difficult for me. He's never received treatment and I've been in recovery for years so that alone made us on different pages. It stinks when you've invested into something that felt hopeful and it turns upside down in no time flat, so frustrating and has made me sad, relieved, and confused all at the same time. :depressed::cry::dead:
