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I'm really concerned. I have therapy every Friday and have done for 6 months. I have a job which I enjoy, just for a bit of background I work at a prestigious jewellers and I had a few times around a year ago where I had multiple panic attacks (that bad I couldn't go to work). I had to do...

I have this feeling I need to be hugged by my therapist. I feel like it would make me open up so much more. It's always the moment when he's like "we have to stop there", I stand up, literally face wet with tears, trying not to even look at him, he opens the door for me and my heart sinks as I...

I am really scared about therapy tomorrow. I always am. I get really heightened anxiety leading up to it. I am heart racing, sweaty palm, super on edge mess in the waiting room. I really struggle to talk about things I really need to talk about. I sometimes walk out of sessions like I've wasted...

I've always had really disturbed sleep. Especially horrible nightmares. I've go through a stage every couple of months at the minute, where all I have to do is sit on my bed/my boyfriends bed and I drop to sleep really unexpectedly, I'm not even tired, when I wake up I have no idea where I am...

Thanks for your reply, I'm glad I'm not the only one in this, but at the same time I wish no one has to feel like this! Stay strong.

Thanks for your reply, I know what you mean. I'm not actually sure whether my parents had enough food, I'm guessing they did as I never saw them or my sister eating the food I'd be made to eat. I know we were really poor when I was little, but we grew veg in our garden and my dad hunted so I...

I have only just realised I need to probably tell my therapist about this. I have huge problems with food. From the texture to food contaminating other food by touching. I try and hide my eating from people, if I hear people walking around my house I'll hide in my room until it's "safe" to go...

I really struggle with eye contact. I don't really know what my therapist looks like properly because I've never made eye contact with him. I've only seen him when he comes to get me out of the waiting room. Now I know he's coming from the noise of his shoes on the floor, so sometimes I don't...

Thanks for your reply, I have thought about doing that, once I had a bad experience doing that with a therapist, but I think it's because he didn't have experience or training in what I needed to talk about. so maybe I could try it again. Take care of yourself!

Thanks for your reply, I've been with this therapist for 6 months now, he is really good, We've talked about lots of different things, but it's just I find it hard to really explain how I feel in words. It just feels like I can't describe emotions, even though I show and feel a lot of emotions...

Thanks for your reply, I had something similar happen to me, after telling my 2nd therapist really graphic details of my trauma she told me it is my fault if that group do it to any other girls, because I didn't tell my parents, police, school, etc. I went absolutely mad at her, I think some...

I am really struggling. On my days off I sleep all day because I don't have the motivation to do anything, I don't eat or drink or move pretty much all day. I just want to hide myself away and break down. I cry almost everyday now. I'm in so much pain. On Christmas I couldn't even fake smile, I...

This is hard for me to talk about, but I feel like I have to. I have I suppose you could say I've got some issues around sex from the trauma I've had. I feel like I have a really high sex drive, so I do love sex and playing with myself. I've got a boyfriend of almost 5 years and he's the only...

Thanks for your reply and sharing your story with me. I always think maybe if I was lucky enough for this to have not happened to me, I probably wouldn't of be able to understand what thats actually like. Like I said it's such a hidden thing in the uk, I felt so alone because of it, but at least...

Thanks for your reply, I do have rituals I have to do before I leave my house but almost all of them are to do with my physical appearance, because if I don't look "right" it's one of the biggest stresses. I'll try and do some calming things in between doing makeup and hair, hopefully that'll...

Thanks for your reply, I am pretty sure it would be denial, because he was saying horrible things, but his body language was saying different. I know that if sub consciously if I thought he felt differently I would've left him a long time ago. I have a therapist who I go to every week, I am...

Thank you for your reply, I just always feel like I'm almost hiding it from him though, that's the problem. I don't particularly want him to know about it, but I almost feel like it would be a relief in a way. We've been through that much stuff, I know deep down telling him wouldn't change...

Thanks for your reply, I don't know whether he didn't believe me or whether it was because I just dropped it out of no where. I am in therapy every week, but I don't know whether taking him there would make me feel worse about telling him, because my therapist doesn't know it all yet. I do...

I was gang raped and tortured at 11, my boyfriend of 4 years doesn't really know. I told him when we first got together that I was raped but I didn't admit to the multiple people part at that time and I still don't like to now because of the shame. I broke down and blurted out what happened...

Has anyone got any tips for managing anxiety, flashbacks, panic attacks at work? I love my job but it's a stressful job. I have to stand in sliletto heels under bright hot lights all day, with a painfully happy smile. Being stared at (which I hate). I have to deal with a lot of cash, also the...

I have suffered from what I've been told are flashbacks for about 10 years, sometimes daily, sometimes I get a day or two off, maybe a week off but rarely. I don't know whether I have had them for such a long time because I was so young (just turned 11) when this happened and no one really knows...

Thank you for your response, I am going to try and use the notes idea, because I need to get it off my chest, it almost feels like I'm getting to the breaking point now. My t knows the main things that happened, but barely any details. I can talk about some of the bad bits but it's just the...

That's why I never wanted to push it with him, because I didn't know whether it would be pushing his boundaries. I suppose I won't know if I don't even hint of the idea. I might attempt to talk about it one day, I just will have to pluck my courage up first! Thanks for your support, Huge :hug: back!

Thanks for your reply. I do agree with you, i think being complete isolation with this messed me up more, that's why I almost see myself as the bad one. I think I am getting better with being more open, it's still hard but I think it always will be. I was advised against going for a female t as...

Thanks for your reply. It's so important I get better for me, it's just a really horrible process, but I know it won't get easier by leaving it alone, that's why I'm determined to give it my best shot . Take care of yourself :hug: