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Over the past 4 weeks, I have been writing a letter, to my younger self, which I wish I had received, when I was 15 years old, before the summer of 1985. As a warning of the abuse that awaits us, from my younger brother. Well, yesterday, I finished writing it and the editing is done, today. I...

Your welcome, EvenStrongerNow. You have brought a smile to me, as I am struggling with depression and anxiety, again.

Today, I find myself battling depression and feeling burnt out, unable to do anything productive, as I have housework that needs to be, this morning, but couldn't. Not sure, how I manage this, but I wrote two poems. Once again, I have fallen asleep, while taking a nice long lavender bath. Have...

@Spiderallis, its a question of the right hand doesn't know, what the left hand is doing. Am feeling more and more sad and this angers me, like I can't explain. Not sure, my doctor will understand this feeling of myself.

Sigh. I should be doing cartwheels, in excitement that my migraine (had one for the past 2 days) has been reduced to background noise, but instead, am feeling like I am useless piece of dodo, and devoid of energy to get my meds, I need for tomorrow morning. Just wanting to cry, all the time...

@Ayesha, am, in the same boat as you, with regards to sleeping, although currently free of medication. I know, as a child, I had trouble getting to sleep, and when I did, would sleep 10-13 hours, if my parents didn't wake me up. Only a migraine headache for the past 2 days, allowed me to get...

Thank you, @jess_trustno1.

Able to live my life, in whatever gender, I choose for myself and my companion, without the fear of being attacked or worse. To be taken seriously, for whom I am, by those, in authority. To live my life, free of fear,self-hatred and filled with confidence.

Am angry and feeling very wounded, today, as my emotions are all over the map, with the tears erupting, at a moment's notice. I have taken today off, as a maintenance day, to let my emotions flow. Doesn't help, I got 4 hours of sleep, last night, again.

@Kashi, I have experience migraines, as well, but they were triggered, by taking Cymbalta. Since I have stopped it, I had one migraine, since, but I have to be careful, with bright lights.

Thank you, @macca, for your concern and asking. Right now, I have Lady (one of R's cats) resting on my lap, contently. And my SI is about 3.0, which is lower. Right now, feeling drained, after another 4 hr night of sleep. I need to get this under control, because it affect my glucose readings...

@Survivor2Thriver and @Solara, I have an addition issue to deal with, my mom's transphobic reaction to me. Those scars are slowly starting to scab over.

Sadly, @franciemarnie, I will be lucky to get to fall asleep before midnight, here.

Yes, I know my mom and brother will never change, but it has been my burden, @Survivor2Thriver. For I am, the one with the flashback memories.

I'll be posting it, here, @It's all my fault. Right now, I am not sure, how to approach this matter, but given enough time, help and support, I'll find a way, which makes sense to me.

How I wished my abusive family members could see and understand this reality, @Meadowsweet. I know, I have a lot of work, before I can let of my anger. Thank you, for your answer.

@Ninja, I can relate to your problems with sleeping. Am feeling guilty, but not sure, why this is happening, to me.

Not sure, how I should start this, concerning my relationship with my family, except it's complicated and filled with abuse (psychological and physical), which I have mentioned, in previous postings. Yesterday, my nurse practitioner asked me, several questions about, how I felt about my mom's...

Just don't give up @Liana, you will find more alternatives that work for you.

Thank you, @DharmaGirl, for your supportive comments. My SI has lowered, to about 3.5 from last night's 4.0.

Am feeling a bit calmer than last night, but so tired, from the lack of quality sleep time. Having R's and my cats around me, has helped to lower my SI, a bit.

@LaraGeel, as a transsexual, myself, I have found arrogance is, like @Barconian says. People will accept us or reject us, based upon their prejudices, and that it takes time to overcome, if ever. Sometimes, we have to stand up for our rights, knowing we may not be, the direct beneficiary of...

Liana, for me, the constant shaking of my hands is outward expression of my anxiety. Do you have techniques that you use to calm yourself down, when the anxiety gets too bad for you? Like a long hot shower/bath, aroma therapy with a smell that you associate good experiences with, or meditation...

Thank you, @Spiderallis , at times, I feel so overwhelmed, by the events that are happening in my life, I lose my place and start feeling hopelessness and useless. Life moves, in mysterious ways, Spiderallis.

@Shan-Nav01 , thank you, for your well wishes. My avatar is reflective of my transsexual nature, as the butterfly is, one of two symbols that the trans-community uses, reflecting the metamorphosis, a transperson undergoes to find their true self. I thought, you like to know.