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After a full night's (6 hours) black sleep, i.e. no dreams, or nightmares. Me waking up slowly in my own time, nice breakfast, then into town. WHAM! Switch thrown, there was no way I could remember anything including SWMBO's name! Every decision needing thinking about I couldn't easily...

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If it is needed (say wife gets harassed), training kicks in, and that's usually the problem solved. "Occasionally" I get the burden of a police interview but never any charges. BUT, where as I could turn the training off at will before PTSD came back, Now it takes DAYS before I come out of CP mode.

Social media or media in general isn't the problem on the streets. However, the unpredictability of this current nastiness from non indigenous idiots (with their helpful idiots from the local university in tow) is a danger. Regularly attendee, and 2 times a week food bank helper. Which is about...

So the two protests we hit didn't happen? Me and a few more putting our women in a circle of husbands and others didn't happen. The police doing nothing didn't happen? You have a nice day friend.

In case folk don't know, the UK is in turmoil now a new government has taken over. Free speech can result in prison and Christianity is under attack from "another religion". We have to drive to our nearest town for a lot of our shopping and got caught up in two protests which we wanted no part...

Silent Night. It was the calm of the night that awoke me On the river that flowed slowly by No wind in the trees to rustle the leaves No bird calls that cut through the night Sat quiet on the bank of that river No towns near to light up the sky Starlight took on a new meaning That and the glow...

A Story. Recently I was attending a business meeting and award shindig. Didn't want to but the host was a long time friend who thought it might help me to mingle. So I started with up two notches on my stress meter as I hate gatherings. I live in Amber (Jeff Coopers colour code) so I was...

Right now I'm thinking you need help. You must take care of you first. My wife was having a hard time with my PTSD BUT the Veteran Services Charity that is working on me is also working with her, giving her advice and "educating" her to what she can do to defuse things. It's been working too...

So I sent the NHS (UK health service) "provider" who made the promises an email. Nothing came back. Was I surprised? Nope. As of now I'm receiving help from a charity run organisation. It only took one phone and help arrived via Zoom. It isn't full on clinical help but "conversation and mind...

It's been a long time since I lost it completely with a shrink. That was when drugs was king when treating Mal de Guerre . I warned him, he ignored the warning, enough to say I got within inches of inserting the pill container into him where the sun don't ever shine. He ran, I let him. The...

It sounds like I've been quite lucky as I'm fast approaching 70. I've been OK (ish) for 38 years till this year when what worked for me doesn't anymore. Even worse, having looked after myself for so long, finding help seems "difficult". Perhaps that's just modern life but who knows. Systems set...

Nice thing about charity based help groups? When they say they are going to get things done, they usually do. So next week both myself and wife (SWMBO) are talking to two separate therapists. One for me, and one for SWMBO. It took just one email and a chat on the phone. Nice bit about it is...

This lack of knowledge, let alone practical experience of PTSD outside of mental health professionals, is not unknown. As for their concern was "spot on?". The prospect of never walking again isn't one many people would welcome BUT, my reaction to that knock was taken in private like a lot of...

Aside from PTSD, I've lived a very hard physical life with multiple irreversible (some progressive) injuries that have caught up with me in old age. I've just had a knock back which was the last thing I needed as I'm struggling really hard with a resurgence of my PTSD. Only it was HOW that knock...

Interesting post but harmful is uncontrolled anger. That sort of anger affects the very senses that aid survival aka self protection. The adrenaline dump dulls the major senses of sight, smell, hearing, and touch as in picking up on temperature and air movements. It forces you into the basic...

I use my anger to get through problems when I can't do something "normal". Take shopping. I couldn't face milling crowds, confined spaces, and queues. All of which are common in our supermarkets. So, I make myself angry, which raises my adrenaline. That causes tunnel vision so aren't...

Luckily I still have a few Bro's who came back broken from there who are walking and talking. The only time I relax is when speaking to them. I know I'll get a kicking for saying this but can some white-coat who has not lived combat ever really understand the myriad of emotions you get hit...

Hi Midnight moon. A GP referral got me an introduction into this "non event" NHS program. Speaking to my GP again, he was unwilling to do more and "I should give them more time". That really annoyed me so I felt compelled to make a point. So I showed him my visible scars and asked if he could...

Unhappily no. Right now I'm getting some help from guys I worked with in the late 1980's. Some of them are damaged the same as me so they know from their experiences and treatment some of what I'm going through and what they did to defeat it. Do I think they are better than "professional help"...

Another day, another charity, but no real help outside of friendship. I'm not knocking all the mental health charities because some of them do good work . However wouldn't it be nice to actually get some CLINICAL HELP, indeed any help, from the UK's NHS mental heath system? It's coming up for 7...

I regret your troubles but know from experience the 'other half' does get a hammering from the sufferer. However, occasionally, the whole thing gets sort of turned around. After 6 months I can sum my desperately needed PTSD treatment in one word - -Nothing--. (Endless Waiting list). We also...

Interesting reply. Me? I was born into a forces family there were 8 moves before I turned 5, and after that a move every 3 years. Then I grew up (in age not intellegence) and also joined the forces. Every 3 years I got moved with quite a few "temporary changes of address" inbetween. Repeat until...

I know, I've got to be crackers moving house when dealing with PTSD. I mean what could be more stressful? Yet, since leaving the forces in the 80's, it's kinda in me to move on every seven years or so and, after every move, I'd have 4-6 years of calm, no nightmares or flashbacks. Then came the...

With SWMBO and dog on my side, that's may just be doable.🙂