At last. Help is arriving via Zoom.

[DogTired]

Nice thing about charity based help groups? When they say they are going to get things done, they usually do.
So next week both myself and wife (SWMBO) are talking to two separate therapists. One for me, and one for SWMBO.
It took just one email and a chat on the phone.
Nice bit about it is they acknowledged my concern about the stress I'm putting my wife through.

Meanwhile, I'm not quite sure what is going to happen with me (because I see myself as a lost cause).
However , the important thing is my SWMBO is going to get some positive support and "training" on how to deal with my screwed up mind that is causing the anger and mood swings I'm going through.
That can only be good for both of us.

 

[Movingforward10]

Most of us here think we were lost causes. But it's another lie we tell ourselves.

Great that you're starting therapy.

I did most of my therapy via zoom. Worked for me.

 

[Friday]

Hell yah.

Even if they’re “just” an eedjit to argue with? The argument itself is useful. If they’re at all decent? Bliss.

Full disclosure, my first attempt at therapy I ended up throwing a chair through a window, after some seeeeeriouslynbad behaviour (you probably get I don’t regret the chair, but do regret what happened before that). In a church. I was young. Very young. And hurting hard. I didn’t attempt therapy, after that, for nearly 20 years. I am gifting this to you, one vet to another, as your low bar. Do better than me? It’s a win. Against f*cktard morons, and for self respect. No throwing furniture through stained glass windows, check check. Did good.

Conversely? There’s a helluva lotta catharsis in throwing shit through windows. I simply suggest doing it on purpose, rather than on accident / out of control / reacting violently… instead of destressing violently. Says the person who bought a PALLET of restaurant glasswear to throw at the shed, to re-learn self-control when pissed off.

 

[DogTired]

Hell yah.

Even if they’re “just” an eedjit to argue with? The argument itself is useful. If they’re at all decent? Bliss.

Full disclosure, my first attempt at therapy I ended up throwing a chair through a window, after some seeeeeriouslynbad behaviour (you probably get I don’t regret the chair, but do regret what happened before that). In a church. I was young. Very young. And hurting hard. I didn’t attempt therapy, after that, for nearly 20 years. I am gifting this to you, one vet to another, as your low bar. Do better than me? It’s a win. Against f*cktard morons, and for self respect. No throwing furniture through stained glass windows, check check. Did good.

Conversely? There’s a helluva lotta catharsis in throwing shit through windows. I simply suggest doing it on purpose, rather than on accident / out of control / reacting violently… instead of destressing violently. Says the person who bought a PALLET of restaurant glasswear to throw at the shed, to re-learn self-control when pissed off.

It's been a long time since I lost it completely with a shrink. That was when drugs was king when treating Mal de Guerre .
I warned him, he ignored the warning, enough to say I got within inches of inserting the pill container into him where the sun don't ever shine.
He ran, I let him.
The replacement white coat simply taught me a defuse technique that worked for 38 years. No pills, liquids, or whatever.
That failed this year. So I'm hoping for something along the same lines.
I know few can "cure" the problem, I just want something to take the edge off. That's not too much to ask for.
AS for pills? I'll tell them once, they better listen. Old and grey I am but not averse to repeating "the experiment".