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  1. Eagle3

    New direction for work

    Since it seems like I can't find and keep any regular work (for lots of reasons), I've decided to go a different direction. I'm taking my Life Coaching work to an official level! I just started my certification courses and will be done sometime next week. My business website and Facebook pages...
  2. Eagle3

    What do bedrooms look like?

    I am a huge fan of IKEA's Kallax cube-shelved bookcase series. I turned a 5x5 into my library, 2 4x2's into my entertainment center, and one 4x2 as a catchall beside my bed. I also have a 2x2 in my closet for boxes of clothes. IKEA also has some really nice bed frames with drawers, although they...
  3. Eagle3

    Overcoming learned helplessness?

    This is an excellent question, and I will be watching this thread. I have debilitating LH, to the point I can't even hold down a job. I just know I'm going to screw stuff up, so why even bother trying? Yeah, I have absolutely NO trust in myself. So frustrating, but no idea how to rectify this...
  4. Eagle3

    Breaking up is so hard to do

    The new prospect is a drug/alcohol addiction counselor. I know they have NO training in clinical counseling, but I'm more interested in his energy/spiritual modality than anything else. As long as I have a healthy attachment to SOMEONE I can take care of myself, but I need the energy work and...
  5. Eagle3

    Is being a prepper feeding ptsd paranoia?

    I was a prepper for a long time, ever since Y2K. I've researched all the ins and outs of the prepared lifestyle, and I still live it to a certain extent. However, I've recently come to the conclusion that a LOT of the business hype around preparedness is just reactionism and paranoia being...
  6. Eagle3

    Breaking up is so hard to do

    My awesome T finally got in touch with me. He's having a hard time with his treatment, said almost everything he'd been told is actually the OPPOSITE of what he's experiencing. He said he had NO IDEA when he'd be back, but he'd let me know when he's ready to practice again. Of course, my...
  7. Eagle3

    Other Religion (cult) verses addiction

    I too was raised in a religious cult. My parents are still very deeply involved in it, but I just can't be! Leaving the cult was very difficult for me because they twist things so well! Their logic makes perfect sense most of the time, but things never really "set right" with me. It took years...
  8. Eagle3

    Have you ever stopped and started therapy with the same person again?

    I had to leave the best therapist I've ever worked with for almost a year now. We did phone sessions until he got sick and I ran out of money, but when he comes back to work, I'm going to be first in line assuming I find the money to pay for his time again! I NEED that therapist and his...
  9. Eagle3

    Is your therapist your friend?

    Intense, intimate, healthy connection on several levels? Yes. Therapeutic relationship? Yes. Therapy through Aikdio instruction, Yes. Friend?? NO!! While there are times I wish we could be, this is what I need now, and this is all I get from him. I don't know his personal struggles, he doesn't...
  10. Eagle3

    In family therapy with narc-ish family; reveal aspergers dx?

    I read the first interaction with your sister and depression, and I TOTALLY agree with your original interpretation. Your sister was making it all about her, and you came back with an empathetic, yet appropriately boundaried, response. I'm all hella kinds of proud of you for that interaction...
  11. Eagle3

    Anybody here had a therapist who really gets it, really understands your thoughts

    Yep, only one T has ever really "GOT" me, and I can't wait to be working with him again! I've been through several T's, and usually ended up fixing their problems for them...this one stays focused on me, and really understands me in a way I never thought possible from another human being. Those...
  12. Eagle3

    Lost another job

    I knew I wasn't performing well enough, so I turned in my resignation before they could fire me. I scheduled a chat with my boss to discuss some things related to the disability that was causing the most problems (Autism, surprisingly). Turns out I still have EXTREME anxiety about bosses due to...
  13. Eagle3

    Anyone else get triggered or stressed or by wind?

    I grew up in Tornado Alley. Been through several close calls while home alone. I'm also on the Autism Spectrum, so I tend to be affected more than others by such things as the sound and feel of wind. I'm currently in the basement because the winds are over 60+ mph right now (no storms, just...
  14. Eagle3

    If i could have a spirit guide, it would be a .........

    Pretty sure one of mine is the Wolf. I've had dreams where big white wolves talked to me, and I have a special connection to all dogs, but especially large shepherd-type ones. I can't imagine life without a dog in it in some way, and I regularly get wolf-cards when I play with my Animal-power...
  15. Eagle3

    He promised me...

    I agree with your position, except for one thing....I still can't develop a healthy relationship in the real world. We still have lots of work unfinished, and I'm not currently in a place to find someone who can pick up where this guy left off. It's the same patterns of my life that keep...
  16. Eagle3

    He promised me...

    I do have a local T who I will be seeing tonight, but he's nowhere NEAR as good as my sick T. Honestly, if he's not useful in some way tonight, I won't be going back (VERY small town, no resources, and I can't afford to spend money on useless therapy). This whole thing just brings up so much...
  17. Eagle3

    He promised me...

    When my awesome T back home first learned about his cancer, he promised me he'd be back in practice when it was over, and that he'd post regular updates so I'd know he was still alive. Just yesterday he posted an update that his ability to speak has been affected, and he doesn't think this is a...
  18. Eagle3

    Fantasies about being injured

    I had something similar going on all the time growing up. I would fantasize about being severely injured, then having some authority figure take care of me and nurse me back to health. I was always a homeless orphan male (biologically I'm female, but recently accepted the fact that I'm...
  19. Eagle3

    Sufferer Hello i am here searching for answers from ex cult members

    I'm a cult survivor, and studied a lot of religions and psychology of cults. Ask any questions you have, I may be able to help.
  20. Eagle3

    Curcumin and turmeric instead of traditional ssri?

    @Fadeaway so true! That's why I've whittled down my own supplements list to the bare necessities, and they all complement each other to work synergistically. I've completely changed the way I eat now, and have seen such huge improvements in my mood and symptoms, along with Eastern practices...
  21. Eagle3

    Curcumin and turmeric instead of traditional ssri?

    I've been studying nutrition for over 20 years, mostly because we could never afford doctors, and they always called me a hypochondriac. I've had to use nutritional healing to keep myself alive, so I kind of have a deep background in it. Once I get my Master's, I'm going to include a certificate...
  22. Eagle3

    Do you give your therapist feedback?

    I give feedback to my T for many reasons, all of them practicing interactional dynamics I never really learned as a kid. I never learned to stand up for myself and say, "this isn't working" or" I'm not comfortable with this" and have my words be heeded. With my therapist, they are, and I'm...
  23. Eagle3

    Curcumin and turmeric instead of traditional ssri?

    It took a couple of days, and it wasn't obvious it was working until I stopped taking it. However, for pain relief the effect is almost immediate. Maybe takes an hour to notice a difference. Good luck! If you have any questions about the process, I'm right here :-)
  24. Eagle3

    Curcumin and turmeric instead of traditional ssri?

    Turmeric can be used as a mild anti-depressant. It worked pretty well for me for a good long while. Turmeric powder has to be combined with black pepper and a healthy fat (like coconut, olive, or hemp oils), and kind of needs to be heated to a warm temperature for it to be bio-available. I got...
  25. Eagle3

    Finally wrote "the letter"

    After some really intense and disturbing dreams about my abusive Kenpo instructor and his family, I wrote "the letter" today. It details everything that went on in my head during our training, how his abusive behavior affected me, and why I never spoke up. This letter is a solid 4 pages long. I...
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