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I love you guys and this thread so much right now. From @Gadgie to everyone else who chimed in thank you for making me feel less alone and like a freak as usual!
I am SO INCREDIBLY ANGRY - it's my main feeling I identify with right now and part of it is purposeful b/c I'm embracing that...
I hear you! My issue is disability - it's near impossible for my situation to get and that's driving me nuts that I don't even have the physical ability (slightly impaired right now with my illness) to look that up myself and my friend who wanted to help is dragging her feet and it's hard for me...
1) I feel like I waste time spending so much time on this forum but it really is needed for me
2) I judge myself for being so unproductive a member in society
3) I wonder why I do that now when I'm so much a whole-er, more healed person than in my early 20s yet I didn't judge myself then for...
Everytime someone talked about PTSD I was in disbelief b/c I thought only combat vets got it. A psychologist I talked to during college said I had mild depression b/c I had a relapse and self-harmed again (something I'd grown out of after high school) and I was horrified b/c depression sounded...
I email if it's a long message and he'll always reply within 24 hours, usually with a suggestion for how I can self-care further.
If it's a fast or short message, I will text (like to hammer out logistics if I need to switch a time, or just to write back that I got his confirmation, or to tell...
Soooo glad you posted here.
This may not apply to your life at all so ignore if needed, but does your financial situation allow you to go under Obamacare while we still have it? I would be dead without assisted medical aid and since this may be the last year we have it, I'm using it like CRAZY...
@Ronin thank you so much for the kindness!
I saw The Shack yesterday and it gave me the same revelation you are mentioning - that I have to stay on earth because my husband has not met me yet and would probably be devastated if he didn't get to.
The silver lining is that so many of these recreations I used to do and through years of work, life-changing events, heavy healing, and a great church community, I have been able to stop the majority of my old coping mechanisms (sex as escapism, dating abusive men etc.)
My main recreations are...
I went to acupuncture so I had one long sleep finally after 6 nights of horrible insomnia, but tonight I'm totally anxious again and worried. I want to take a xanax but worry that it will have interactions with the prilosec I took after dinner.
Recovering (from panic attack this week)
Slightly traumatized (from same)
Grief-stricken
Numb-ish
Dull ache in heart
Lost-ish
Sad
Not wanting to sleep but knowing I should
1) I've lost the love of my life.
2) I don't know how I'll ever recover.
3) My heart hurts so.
4) I wonder why everyone gets love but me.
5) I am small and wounded and on the floor, bruised. But not broken, no sir.
::tears::
Please pray that I recover from the residual effects of an absolutely terrible panic attack Monday morning. And my heart heals from grief, and that I embrace Jesus' truth, healing, and love. I want to feel held by Him.
Oh @C j glad to see you here!
Relate to you and @Katiesue!
This past few week has been truly the worst with nonstop triggers plaguing me endlessly, and my insomnia came back as a result - or I'd fall asleep and be woken and immediately think utterly terrible thoughts.
One night I just got up and got out my diary and I...
Nobody does - that's why we're all still suffering lolol. Many have theories and have studied it extensively and give lots of lectures, but we're all just 5 blind men describing the par tof the elephant we can see.
Plus we're all so different from each other! So our bodies may have similar...
omg I needed this thread right now! I have gastritis AGAIN after a seriously stressful week (plsu eating some shit horrible food I guess I shouldn't ave but didn't know at the time) and the whole HELL CALLED LIFE culminated in my biggest panic attack in YEARS (literally maybe 10 years) and I'm...
Congrats on making it through the doctor!
ABsolutely! ALL my worst physical problems are coming from my CPTSD with its ensuing depression and anxiety (ex: gastritis from stress/anxiety). When I am happy, my body feels good (the reverse correlation holds true as well), and sometimes when I am in...
Thanks so much! I'm so unfamiliar I have no idea what these acronyms are but very helpful to me lol.
When you say oil can I safely assume it's a topical application? Totally unaware of all these things obviously, lol.
Acupuncture is my MAIN mode of treatment for EVERY health thing in my life and has been for 2 years now. It cured me of a million chronic (I thought) issues that western meds couldn't touch, including physical therapy. I have cured:
- insomnia
- bad periods
- food allergies
- neurological...
Went off Lexapro b/c the side effects made everything worse.
Please pray that I find peace - I just moved and I HATE change like this. It was an unexpected, unplanned, not so great move so I'm not happy ether. Please pray I find God's comfort.
Also having an extremely difficult period - please...
1) Oh man I'm stuck on a mac you guys!!! I have some inspirational wallpaper not a pink flamingo but now I see pink flamingos in my mind! (great, just used up 1 of the 5)
2) I HATE LEXAPRO SO MUCH!!!! I just wasted a whole day b/c I took some last night and it made me so depressed I couldn't do...
Oh @Bananie I've thought about you a lot b/c you're hilarious and I totally resonate with your vibe! now I know why - I have a similar background.
My mother sexually abused me but so much of it was covert incest that I didn't even know she did that to me until recently. It took decades to...
I just want to thank you for posting this and the responses past and coming - I just started EMDR and I chose not to learn TOO much about it but learn as I go so I don't get too in my head, but I also feel a little lost sometimes.
Please keep sharing so I can learn as you do!