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This is all so much for me to hear. I actually did tell - and got yelled at. So, it will be extra hard to tell anyone anything. Yet, I want so much to be heard. For someone out there to know what actually happened. But I have no one yet to tell it to - or trust with this information..

Sadly, I know that I did tell.....and yet it went on and on. I found a letter that I wrote to God when I was very young. I wasn't even spelling correctly yet. So, it must be lower elementary school. I asked Him for help, and "told" Him that "I had told my mother." Then I asked him why He...

I seem to "jump" out of myself too. Automaticely. I actually never realized it till I noticed that all my childhood memories are from the 3rd person. I feel and view all my memories from.. up there. I seem to be floating up in the corner of the ceiling, just watching the story unfold. Even the...

When you're a child, your whole world is your parents, so to "lose" them (from a child's perspective) is not worth telling anything to anybody. Especially if they told you not to. To a young child- it seems like it would mean death. So to save yourself - you don't tell. Reassure yourself that...

Have you tried writing it out? This way you can stop if you need to - if it gets to be too much for you. Then you will always know that your story has been told. You could then decide if you want to let anyone read it.

When ever I look back and this question comes up - I tell myself that it doesn't matter. They may have chose to forget it or it may have bothered them for their whole lives. I tell myself that their day will come - and they will be judged. Then they will have to deal with it - alone. Telling...

What you're noticing is like an extra sense. I have it too. But, it is more like a very detailed notice of all the things around you. From the expressions on peoples faces to the clothes they wear. I had a T explain to me how a child learns to notice different things without even realizing it...

I've always wondered what the difference was. I know that there is a difference. I was having a conversation with my sister (that I don't have much of a relationship with), when all at once she looked at me and said "don't do that- I hate when you do that!" I must have changed my expression on...

I often want to cry, but can't. I'm so afraid that I won't be able to stop. It scares me to think that if I lose control, I will be taken to the hospital for being out of control. When I need to, I just go for a walk by myself, so I can cry - with no one watching me. And, I know that the...

Thank you much for your example. It really explained it to me much better that the articles I have read.

I'm sorry that this happened to you. It is similar to what happened to me. As the details came out, I ended up in the hospital. When I got out - they were all gone. They just disappeared into the wind. It is so sad that we are the victims and need the most help, yet we are the ones that get blamed.

I can't give any advice on what would work for you. I can only say that I understand your hurt.... I have a letter that I found that I wrote to God when I was very little...in it I asked him to "make it stop". I also asked him why he lets this happen. "I thought Jesus loves kids". When I found...

I'm glad that I found this discussion. My mother passed just last year. This will be the first Christmas without her. My father is still alive. He is 93 and very sharp. Over the years, I have been watching my "people" die off. My grandfather was gone before I started remembering. And as I said...

You're so lucky to have someone who will even read about your condition. I wish my husband would.. I bring home articles for him. Even the short ones are not read.

Thanks for saying this. I have been wishing "to feel" for many years. When I mention it - people look at me like I'm crazy.

I'm sorry that this happened to you. I had a similar experience. When I told my family, they all erupted at me and told me that I was lying. It started a lot of fighting and yelling. I quickly shut down, apologized . I have never spoke of it again. I just paint on a smile and "go thru the...

I think that I have convinced myself that the reason they are not there, is that they are too terrible to remember. I have learned from readings, therapy, and common sense, that the mind only remembers what it can handle at the time. I had to be rushed to the hospital 3 times, because I...

Hi, HannaD. Welcome to the forum.

Thank you for putting it this way. It pointed out a few new things for me to think about. This is one of the coping tricks that one of my childhood T taught me. I just ask myself "what is the worst thing that can happen?" Then I can be prepared for "that". And I end up finding out that the...

My husband is also waiting for me to "heal". I can't make him understand that this does not go away. He even has difficulty understanding that it can come and go. I have also found - even with all the work and studies that have gone on in the last few years- my insurance company still thinks...

Juno, may I ask how old you are? You say that your parents won't let you see a doctor?

OMG ! My husband does that too. He says that "it's just a guy thing". He also makes it a point to mumble under his breath as he walks away. Which makes me feel guilty.

If you have someone to "know" even some, of what your going thru. I found that a "secret signal" was a good idea. It was kind of like having someone on my team. Someone who knew. A lot like when you and your best friend could signal each other across the classroom while the teacher was talking...

I'm so sorry that you went thru all this. Remember that there is always someone to listen, here in the forum.

When mine would come - this sounds kind of funny, I know - but I would get "tingles in my butt". LOL (like the feel your skin gets when your arm or leg "fall asleep"). When this would start to happen to me, I would leave the room and go to the bathroom, or just signal my friend, who knew what is...