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I've been through childhood trauma so I think this always happened but obviously when you're a teen and so on- you get told you're dramatic and you move on. I've noticed when someone (especially from my immediate family but aquintances too) is mad or highly upset about something and highly...

Disappointment

I can't deal with fixing my life anymore today. It's been a long year of trying. Can't I get a couple days of relief and not heading for another cliff?

Dream

I'm such a fool. To think for a second my ex actually was going to agree helping me now. I asked him for something as I'm struggling with life currently and he said we'll discuss it in the evening. Evening comes and he now says that we agreed I can't rely on him like this anymore. Then what did...

I love this quote. I'm sure you have your own interpretation but something came to mind for me too. Definitely something to remember, I do that a lot too. Not with everyone for sure, but with some family. It's really hard to be objective and chose different path than you are pushed towards. And...

But you are right though. There are millions of ignorant people and some are inevitably going to be around you. If you know in yourself that they are just ignorant let it go or rather let them go. And maybe they'll never recognize certain things. They probably Don't realize the impact of...

Personally maybe that depends on customs where you live, but that situation would make me creeper out whether or not it's assault and whether or not you report it or not. Reporting it is either about justice for you of preventing someone from harm. So that has to be your decision. My own...

Eventually, after a while, you just regroup and take another step forward. That's life.

911

Personally I have noticed that if I just push down how I feel it makes it worse. I tried to conform to how I should be for several weeks now and pushed every feeling I had about it... and now all of a sudden I could no longer control what I needed and had to have a talk with my mother about...

And... I was not wrong. Pushing my feelings down never worked for me. I ended up writing out how I actually feel and have felt for weeks. I wrote for 90 min. And then when I finally know I need to talk to my mother about how certain things function at home, suddenly I blew up. I mean it wasn't...

That is both right and not. On one hand allowing myself to plan further than 3 days, and to also do some necessary self care like yoga after being depressed for long- all very necessary. But also there are more immediate worries to face and I spend a day not thinking about them thinking I had at...

Irish (*no idea why, just first thing that came to mind as how you make tea in winter to help sore throat lol)

Yeah... it's kind of been that way for a long time. Usually it's some period in time and then there is lighter period when things are seemingly better for a while. Except now it's been a while, like year and a half to 2 years of things just being relentless. It's exhausting.

I felt okay for like 30sec and allowed myself to have a chill day and plan more than 3 days ahead for a first time in a while, and trust that things are falling in place...and they didn't. And now I feel stupid that I felt safe for a moment. Gotta start over tomorrow and I feel awful.

Desperate. Applying without enough regular income is brutal

@Givrali I can relate. I feel things were so hard I'm at a point where I had to be happy of small progress or I would lose my mind. However due to all that I'm finding myself forgetting deadlines, having so overflowing drive that my email can be shut down if I don't clean it out, forgetting...

Twine 😄

Wine

Productive evening. First in a while. I'm reeling in that feeling 😌, I missed it.

'Take your time. Even when there is no time.slow is smooth. Smooth is fast.' -Ruben in the Teacup TV series

Update: So me expressing my thoughts after they did theirs actually ended up okay. Usually if I bite my words I end up feeling worse and then eventually obsessing about fixing things the way the other person wants even if in this case it's not possible. But I said what I needed to, and they...

I'm having a bit of a hard time. I'm usually so stricktly thought because of trauma how to control my emotions. Tooks me many years to allow people to see me cry and now I am accepting, sort of. But then I had pushed my anger down and down for survival and it's finally coming out sometimes in...

Does that happen to you? To me it's been in waves. But since I was at a point where I couldn't work and slept 3 hours per night in parts, and had nightmares I remembered vividly, I had been on sleep medication. Plus watching something until asleep. But the medication to keep me asleep for enough...