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I've gone through another weekend in hell. Hell is where my daughter is full of troubles I can't seem to help with no matter how hard I try or want to or love her. Friday she exploded at my husband, her father, calling him every horrible name ever, a scathing rant. She hit herself on the arms...

I'm ending therapy after five years. It's not.... a happy, success story ending. It's gotten too upsetting to go week after week and I can't take the strain anymore, the ups and downs, the disconnects, but I love my therapist. She's been unbelievably welcoming, we've gotten so close over the...

I decided recently my daughter needs therapy. I got triggered because getting into therapy was a catalyst for my revealing abuse and the breakup with my father, stepmother, step-siblings, and pretty much the death of the relationship with my mother. So today was a hard day. Yesterday too. In...

My therapist took some time to chat with me online yesterday. I do pay for online messaging, but live chat is a bonus, as I was under the weather emotionally & physically. It went alright, but I was in a panic and got riled up when she tried to redirect me. Here's what I've written this morning...

My therapist works from home, we do phone sessions and email, more than three years now. We both had weekend plans, family staying with her, a rare overnight getaway for me and a session scheduled this morning. She just wrote me to ask if we could meet 30 minutes later than planned today. I said...

Today we had a session and it did not go well or end well. I told her she had lost a client... and I meant it. I may have just said goodbye to my good-enough-mother, the closest thing I would ever have to a parent. I'm going to stop there. :speechless:

I had one when I was 16 and dropped out of high school. I'm kinda afraid I'm gonna have another one right now. My work is online so they don't know how I work in fits and starts, making up for being distracted for hours by other things with rapid catchup. But I have missed a meeting...

My therapist gave me a lot of advice in a rough couple sessions this week. Yesterday she said to me that "you made a pretty big mistake," and "if you try to control everything you're going to end up with 'an oil and water' relationship with your daughter like __________ (husband) has." The...

Hi all. I've been in therapy 3 years now, online therapy with daily email discussions/journaling and for the last year or two, usually two sessions a week a 60 and a 30 minute. Frequency was much higher initially. My stressors right now are mainly: 1. Just having moved and the house is...

I am having a hard time moving today. Brain still going, fingers will type some, not much else. Am stuck at home on the couch, made myself eat, but... I feel like lead. I have to go out, i have work to do. I've been burning out a while, then last weekend a huge trigger followed by the...

I called my therapist for our regular phone session half hour ago. "Did you get my message," she asked me. "No," I said. Silence. "I'll just check the message and go from there," I said, hoping she needed a few extra minutes, that happens sometimes. But then I read the message. She's having a...

I had a flare up I guess you'd say on Sunday/Monday and it's lingering. Dredged up some painful memories, took them to therapy, was really struggling to get up, all the crying didn't help, just felt so out of sorts. I feel really alone and hurt and upset and SO tired, like I could turn to stone...

On May 31 I finished my last class in my bachelor's degree program. On July 19 my degree was officially conferred. I dropped out of high school at 17, only a few months from graduation, due to PTSD, undiagnosed and untreated at the time. It was all I could do to stay sane. But I stabilized a...

Hello all, It's been quite a while since I've posted here but I could use some calm and understanding perspective. (Please try and be moderate in your replies, keeping in mind it's a long story and this is just some of it and I really hope you all can help me calm down, not ramp up more, ha.)...

I was sexually abused by my father: oral sex is the one I think of the most. I did support groups, therapy and workbooks as a young woman to deal with it. A couple years post-therapy I met my husband. (I previously considered myself a lesbian, I am still most attracted to women, but I was...

Yesterday I had a tough session. I was disclosing details for the first time of a breakdown I had that led to me dropping out of high school after I reported my dad to the police for abusing me, had to move out, and move in f/t with my mother. My mother didn't believe me, started researching...

A little more than one year ago, I was diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I remember a late night chat with my therapist, as I sat in bed and cried, thinking that this disorder had been with me, undiagnosed, for twenty years, and fearing that I would lose a part of myself as I worked...

Hi all, I just need a safe place to vent. This isn't anything earth-shaking, but I am upset at my therapist, and I've already written to her why, and I'm still mad but don't particularly want to "yell" at her. I had an amazing dream last night, but a scary one. I wrote to her and said I didn't...

Hi all, I've been dealing with a scary family situation lately, and it's kind of shocked me how hard I've taken it: I don't think I probably do a good job acknowledging how reasonable my fears are, but lately I've been overwhelmed by feelings a lot more than usual, fear, frustration, anger, and...

I'm waiting to hear from my therapist, sent her an email about today, am losing hope she'll reply. I could use some support maybe. My husband was in a bad temper this morning. He and my daughter have a difficult relationship, very volatile. She's eight. Sometimes... I think he acts like he's...

Hello, all. I just found this site, run by the Veterans Affairs department. I imagine very many of you may have seen it, but it is new to me, and I loved how they had several different tools to help manage all the key PTSD symptoms, so I thought I would share. Link Removed I was not sure...

I tried to delete this thread, but see it is not permitted. I regret what I wrote. Am trying a shorter version, hopeful that is acceptable. Bad day, freaking out, trauma sucks. This too shall pass. Wish it had passed before I posted this thread.

Hi all, I am just having a bad week. It's not the end of the world, sometimes it feels like it, but it's not. I'm not going to kill myself or anything drastic. I just feel so volatile that one minute I'm hysterically crying, one minute I'm furious, one minute I'm calm again and the next I'm...

My anger is a monster. As it escalates, reason slips away, a faint voice lost in the cacophony of screaming. Gandalf's thundercloud temper, rising in stature and power, staff thrust upward. The violent storm, black clouds, lightning all through the sky, shocking the earth. The Incredible Hulk...

I just stumbled across this article and liked how it put a positive spin on dealing with PTSD in a public, healing way, while mentioning some of the typical symptoms. http://www.startribune.com/lifestyle/health/220143801.html