Somebody Call A Plumber

[Leah123]

I tried to delete this thread, but see it is not permitted. I regret what I wrote. Am trying a shorter version, hopeful that is acceptable. Bad day, freaking out, trauma sucks. This too shall pass. Wish it had passed before I posted this thread.

 

[ButterflyBean]

Hi Leah,

I'm sorry to hear you're having such a hard time! I don't know why I can't see your post when I view it in my browser, but I can see it on my phone. So, I want to offer some support. I don't think you're crazy at all! It's actually a good thing that you can express your emotions because I have the exact opposite problem; it's actually hard for me to express them. I have been emotionally "shutdown" for about two years now, and I'm slowly learning how to openly express them again. It wasn't until I started doing EMDR in August that I started being able to access the deeper feelings (the trauma that triggered my symptoms occurred in January, and I think I was diagnosed around March or April). It definitely explained the difficulty I've been experiencing for two years because there were previous traumas that did not cause symptoms, so I wasn't diagnosed until now.

Having the diagnosis definitely explains a lot, and my most frustrating symptom was/is my inability to express my feelings. Be proud that you can feel and express, and I encourage you to keep doing so! We deal with some intense stuff, both in and outside of therapy, and what we have to hold onto is the normality of everything. Our reactions are normal, our feelings are normal, and we are normal! Our therapists are used to this kind of stuff, so we shouldn't be ashamed if we have an intense session! If your thoughts are still troubling you, maybe it's time email your therapist? What are you having trouble with; grounding, feeling safe, images, thoughts, general anxiety? I wouldn't try to minimize your emotions, especially if you need to release them! It's okay have bad days; we all do! Having support is the most important along with taking care of yourself and giving yourself permission to feel!

I hope you feel better soon! I'm always here if you need someone to listen, so feel free to private message me or drop me a line in the chat! Thinking of you with love!

~Holly

 

[anthony]

I have restored your post, as you do not get to delete threads.