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Not sure how this is going to write out. I truly thought things were on track to a better life, a better me. I had a really bad spell in 2010. Was hospitalized on a form (Canada) against my wishes. That coming from graduating college, gaining licensing in my field, having a kid and then not...

Not sure if this fits best here, but honestly don't know where else to post. I've suffered from PTSD (diagnosed) since 2007. In diagnosed well my whole life. I stopped therapy back in 2012 when after trying to find work in my career kept failing and decided to operate my own business for...

Not sure if any comments will help me, but again I will try. I was just out at a “play group” event for my child. While out like always I started to have anxiety attacks. I feel so out of place near people. I’m very sociably awkward and never feel I have anything relevant to speak of. I am...

How do you cope? :meh: How do you manage to make it through each day? I find I’m really struggling with the ability to get through the days. My temper runs hot all the time, I can’t focus on anything, I’m at a constant battle with my internal dialog about killing myself, and I just can’t stand...

I honestly don’t know what I write on this board, nothing constructive or helpful generally comes out of it. And usually the conversation gets turned from what I am seeking advice on to someone else’s issues whom happens to “reply”. But alas I have no one else to go to, and nowhere else to vent...

Every night I spend awake, staring at the wall, listening to my dog dream running and think about all the wasted oxygen I use up every day by existing. Thinking about how pathetic I am as a human being. How much things would be better if I just simply never existed. All I ever seem to notice...

Not even sure how to begin. My life is like one big ball of never ending crap! I’m just at my last straw! And have already started to plan for my “unthinkable” yet thought about all the time, actions. L Nothing in life is ever easy, but does it always have to be a 90 degree uphill battle...

Funny I’ve been a “member” to this site for a year now, and I don’t recall ever actually introducing myself. My post history doesn’t have an introduction post either so… I’m going with I never did introduce myself or my story. I’m A victim of Childhood sexual, physical and mental abuse. I grew...

I have battled myself for years now. I have tried to seek help around every corner only to be shutout. I dont ever speak my mind (I can type it here but saying it in person is very different). I have a very strong Hate on for Medications. Specially Depression and anxiaty meds. up tell resontly...

Background: Been in a relationship with N for 7 years. He has child from previous relationship that is a product of his environment at his mother’s home (aka not normal child). We have a two year old together. He knows little bits about my past, is stubborn, and likes to make sure I know what he...

When does the victim become the surviver? I can't define myself as a surviver, I am told by therapists I am a " surviver" but how can that be when I still suffer? When my entire life is in shambles because of repercussions I suffer due to years upon years of abuse. Why am I the ones who's...

Isolation I'm at my wits end with myself. I've got not a single person in my life that I can talk to, nor do I even really know how to anymore. My "life" right now consists of my over active, over intelligent, extreme two year old son. I have zero people I'd call friends, zero acquaintances...

I've been in a committed relationship for years now. I've been suffering as well off and on, mostly on, from symptoms of my PTSD. Relationships are a real struggle for me, any kind of relationship not just romantic. We know have a child together, that aspect is okay. However he has a child from...

I have yet to set this to paper, to write about it. I have had anxiety attacks before, but thinking of actually committing it where others can see it, well that’s a feeling I haven’t felt in long time…terror. I don’t know why it terrors me so much, the worse is done right? I’m a survivor now...

Hello, I am new to the forum, but not new to the diagnosis of PTSD. I have been officially diagnosed since 2004, oddly enough the year my father passed away. However I have been suffering from PTSD and other issues since well as far back as I can remember. I am told I am a survivor...

11pm, 1am, 3am, 6am, time to function.... I have been dealing with insomnia for as long as I can remember. I seem to go in sperts where for weeks on end I wont rest. I'm 100% on allert 24/7. I cant close my eyes for fear of what the bleak blackness holds for me. I'm alway staring down the...

Hello, I am totally new to this forum but am glad to have found it. I Have been Diagnosed with PTSD for years now. I was originally Diagnosed after being admitted to a psych ward in hospital after my umpteenth suicide attempts...(suprise suprise something else I failed at). Upon release after a...