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The strangest thing to me is that it can happen when I'm feeling perfectly normal, sometimes even content. Like watching TV or simply relaxing. It's disconcerting and immediately gets my attention. I worry that it is the beginning of a spiral. I once had a therapist who had me do the "Stop"...

I am not suicidal but sometimes even when my overall mood is ok I sometimes get fleeting images of how I could attempt. Occasionally a thought of "I just want to die". But I don't. At it's worst, it can be very frequent and pull me into a depressed state. Occasionally I can look back and find a...

I have awful mood swings and times of deep depression. My head is a clustery mess. I can't keep friends. I don't trust people. I feel like I'm broken inside. Some days more-so than others. But all in all, I'm functioning. Maybe not High Functioning, but I've functioned pretty well. And I'm...

Possibly. I do not experience dissociation as 'out of body' at all. You may be experiencing derealization which is a form of dissociation where you experience a feeling of disconnection from your surroundings. Things may seem unreal.

"grounding rock" not box :)

I was just reading about those yesterday and really want to make one! Some suggestions off the top of my head (and I may repeat a few already mentioned) are: List of grounding techniques, reminder to breathe- maybe even how to breathe, positive affirmations and good memory prompts, pictures of...

I've been dealing with that quite a bit in therapy lately. I had on part that took up almost an entire session and it was so weird listening to "me" talk. So different from myself! This part has no compassion and views the world in black and white. My husband told me about a time when he was...

I don't quite know who my real self is. I have several "ways of being" and one in particular that I like to be and normally am. I think I've created it based on my ideal... molding my"self" from people I admired and respected, social expectations, the idea of being a "good" person. That's who I...

When I'm emotionally numb I am usually not in the mood - at all. I don't make a lot of eye contact and if I do it's likely to be kind of blank so to speak. If my husband tried to kiss me I will turn my head away, I shrug off touch or have absolutely no reaction to them. Sometimes I can be...

----------------------- ----------------------- I experience this as well. When my emotions just go numb but I "know" I love my husband and my kids... even though there is no feeling to it. I know I want the best for them, that I don't want them hurt, that really if they were gone it WOULD be...

Today I had a dentist appointment and they are always stressful experiences. Halfway through the hygenist was cleaning around a tooth that had to be repaired due to an assault when I was on the streets at 16 over 20 years ago. Suddenly I was having rapid memories of the assault followed by the...

I'm literally in tears from reading your supportive replies. I just want to say thank you. For the understanding and validation. <3. @Rain @ladee, @Beemo3780, @Cannottakethis

My youngest sister is getting married. For the last year or so I have made the choice not to go to "family" events unless they are at my aunt and uncles or my other sisters. If I go to my bio parents I get weirdly emotional and "little" and unwanted even though they give me no reason in the...

Very special indeed. <3 <3 <3

Last night was the third time my kitty (who is a little over a year old) has woken me up by patting my head and face with her paws and nudging me with her nose. I don't remember exactly what happened in the nightmare/ bad dream last night, just that it was about my trauma. One of the other...

46 "severe" but could be worse. Also not a surprise.

PTSD goes hand in hand with depression. It sounds like it could be both. All you can do is try to encourage (but not press) him to find someone to talk to.

Hi, I'm sorry you're feeling this way. Is it being a sex worker or the actions of others that has "ruined you"? BTW I don't think you're ruined... just needing to do some healing and to find your new you. To learn to trust again... yourself as well as others and the world. You mention the...

Ever since I was a teenager I've been getting these. The 1st time was awful and they were very itchy and EVERYWHERE. Since then I get them almost every year only on my fingers but they aren't very itchy. I consider them one of my PTSD symptoms and I've since found that they are a common stress...

I get triggered into dissociating sometimes when doing "research" too. Just reading about certain types of abuse, dissociation, symptoms and it's causes can bring it on. I'm not sure if I'm just impressionable and too open to suggestion or if I'm just very sensitive to the topics?

iZombie is on Netflix. :)

Fun show. I like it!

I have definitely had this happen many times. It can happen to me outside of therapy but usually it's in therapy talking about something that is in some way triggering (childhood traumas or emotions attached to them). I also remember what is happening throughout but it is surreal. I understand...

While I don't have flashbacks from care giving I can understand the urgent need to sometimes check my husband and my son to make sure they're breathing. I know it's because of how many loved ones I lost as a child even though they did not die. I also panic when my husband or daughter aren't home...

For sure, going to therapy to actually face our demons is much harder than letting it sink down in to the muck. At least for me. I'm not nearly as symptomatic as I was 10 years ago but since starting trauma therapy it's gotten a bit more difficult. More "mood swings", more depression, more...