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    Assault Christmas Party Nightmare

    It's been a while since I last posted something on here but had a really bad experience a week ago and now having a hard time. On December 22nd we had our annual Christmas party at my bosses house. It's a privately owned company and we only have about 8 employees so every year we have our...
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    Your Song Of Life.

    Last Resort- Papa Roach
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    Did Your Abuser Enjoy Abusing You?

    I believe my abusers enjoyed abusing me. I believe my second abuser seemed to enjoy it more than my first. The abuse my second abuser exposed me to was a lot worse than my first abuser but I remember the fear I had to just look at him or when he would look at me. How he can come into a rom and I...
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    Sexual Assault Happy Birthday Letter To My Grandfather

    I can relate to you @MaltOMeal . I went through the same thing with my grandfather from the time I was 5 till I was 8 years old. Back then I didn't know what was going on. He made me feel special. To call me into his room and have our special time together is what he would call it. He said I was...
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    Really Sore

    Thank you @Lolly I've been trying my best to do so. Hope your flashbacks get better.
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    Really Sore

    I often have flashbacks and nightmares of me being raped when I was little and times when I was a little older. Recently been having really bad flashbacks of my most recent attack. I also wake up feeling sore and have bruises. Unfortunately the places that are sore I cant use a heat pad to help...
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    Another Sleepless Night...

    I'm like that almost every night. It really sucks. I lay down about midnight and end up laying awake in the dark until 1 to 2 in the morning. Than when i do fall asleep I'm usually woken up by a nightmare. My alarm clock than goes off at 5:45 am to wake up, get ready for work and get my son...
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    Sexual Assault I've Finally Accepted I Was Raped

    @Cherry_Bluebell yes my aunt was very supportive too bad I can't say the same for my mom. My aunt ended up telling my mom what happened. My mom then came to me crying asking me why i never told her or why I never said anything to anybody. I didn't know what to say to her. The next morning when I...
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    Sexual Assault I've Finally Accepted I Was Raped

    I've only told 1 person about the first time I was raped. I didn't know it was rape for a long time as I was a 7 year old little girl. The second time I was raped it lasted for years from the time I was 10 till I was 13. The whole time this was happening to me I always felt like I deserved it...
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    Sexual Assault Devastating News After Being Raped

    I have an appointment this Friday to get the tests done for STI's. When I called the doctor to ask about when I should get tested after having unprotected sex with someone ( I did not tell them about the rape) they said it would be better to wait a couple of weeks so if I was infected with...
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    Sexual Assault Devastating News After Being Raped

    Three weeks ago I posted on this site for the firs time about my attack. I was raped at a party by I believe 3 different guys. Since then I haven't been able to sleep really well been waking up from nightmares, having flashbacks and just been having a really terrible time coping with all of...
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    I Hate Hearing Children Scream....

    @Jen93 Sorry for upsetting you. Did not mean to. I'm just expressing my opinion. I believe children do not need to be entertained at all times and there are some children who are just awful. I've seen it and have been around it. And I'm talking about a swat on the butt with your hand not...
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    How Do You Find The Right Therapist?

    So I'm thinking about trying to get into some therapy but I don't know where to start. My nightmares and flashbacks will just not go away since the attack 3 weeks ago. It's been hard to sleep and when I do I'm just woken up again and afraid to fall back to sleep. Which makes it worse...
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    I Hate Hearing Children Scream....

    It really irritates me to hear a child screaming. I have a child so I can kind of tell the difference between a needing cry or scream or if the child is just a spoiled brat and is crying because they want something they can't have. My son is 10 years old and he can't stand when he hears babies...
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    The Sex Thread

    I was sexually abused as a child from the time I was 5 years old till I was 13 and decided to leave home. I was raped at age 7 by one of my grandpas weird friends and then raped again from the time I was 10 till I was 13 by my moms boyfriend. Sex to me has never been a good experience. To me sex...
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    Medical Anyone Dealt With Traumatic Births?

    @KwanYingirl It's been rough but it's gotten a lot better. We had so many doctors up and down the west coast of California we had to see every couple of months. From San Francisco to Monterey. Now were down to just 2 doctors. His normal pediatrics doctor and his psychologist to get his...
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    Medical Anyone Dealt With Traumatic Births?

    A late post but I also had a traumatic birth. I went to my 6 month check up and found out I was in labor. The doctor asked me if I was having any contractions and I told her I had some cramps but I thought that was normal. I was dilated to 3 cm. They took me upstairs and once I got in the bed I...
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    Recurring Nightmare

    I have been having the same nightmare every night. Since my attack that happened almost 2 weeks ago. It seems so real like I'm reliving the event over and over again from start to finish. I can hear them and smell and feel them. I wake up gasping for air. Feeling like I'm suffocating (as that's...
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    Is There A Way Not To Become Anxious Around Your Stressors? ?

    I to just went my driving test yesterday. I'm 32 years old n i now just did my driving test. I could never drive. It gave me really bad anxiety and i always was afraid to fail. Finally i decided enough is enough. I need to get over my fear. I did it and i passed. I was so nervous. I to get that...
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    I Hold My Own Death As A Card In The Deck To Be Played When There Are No Other Cards Left

    Valer, So are you currently living with you abuser? If so you need to get out. Whatever it takes. I know personally how you feel. The fear, the hope for death to come and take you away from this nightmare. I lived with my abuser. It was my moms boyfriend. When I was 10 years old he started...
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    Making Dissociation Work For Us

    I do that a lot as well. I've learned to do that as I was a child. Since I was abused at an early age that is how I coped with some of the encounters I experienced. I still do it to this day and I'm now 32 years old. I do it mostly at work. Got kind of a little crazy boss who sometimes likes to...
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    Childhood Still Trying To Cope With The Sexual As A Child

    I've been sexually abused since my early childhood. It started when i was 5 with my grandpa. We went to visit my grandpa every other weekend along with 3 of my other female cousins. He started molesting us. One at a time he would call us into his room for what he called "our special time". It...
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    Sexual Assault Feeling At Fault After Being Raped At A Party.

    I thank everyone for their support. I am a 32 year old woman although i may not look like it at times. I was at an adult party but most of the people at this party wer in their 20's. My girlfriend is 27 and most of her coworkers are around the same age. I know to a point that this wasn't my...
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    Sexual Assault Feeling At Fault After Being Raped At A Party.

    So I am new to this site and not sure how this really works but I am going to give it a try. A little over a week ago I went to birthday party with my girlfriend. It was one of her co-workers birthday and she wanted everybody to get together at her house for some cocktails and fun. It was...
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