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I'm not whiner, iv been happily single for 3 years. But sometimes, I feel like an outcast. I meet a man, and then find something wrong before the guy can even get a date. I have so many red flags that no man can add up. Protection I suppose. But deep down, I wish I wasn't scared anymore, I...

Why am I so angry? Today I woke up completely angry at nothing, and everything! I know I have been having dreams about him, some where we are back together, and to me those are nightmares! What is my dream self thinking? I wake up entirely angry. Yesterday I was feeling It coming on, self hating...

I have been stuck in this state for about 6 months. I too used to be fit, organized, and outgoing. I really hate the thought of getting up and doing anything. I recently got a new job after getting laid off from another one, I did everything from my bed it seems. I took care of things that...

It's my favorite verse in the bible.

I push them all away, so why does It hurt when they go?

I am going to put another spin on this one. Iv Been in a relationship with a person who was constantly overruling my decision in front of the kids. Everytime he did it I felt humiliated, like he was being "passive aggressive." And that he put me at the level of the kids when he did this. Not...

I had to block a guy I started dating because he wouldn't take no for an answer, after I found out things about him that are on my red flag list. Luckely I was smart enough to wait and I didn't sleep with him. But he didn't like me telling him I didn't want to hang out anymore, he...

I can really relate to this. I have the same issues in my place. Iv been here over three months now and it seems to be getting better. What really helped me was running a fan, the constant noise drowns out sounds. Just remember every new place has new creaks, groans, and ticks, outside...

@shimmerz thank you, I'm my own worst critic. After hearing I'm stupid (Among other things) for years, I guess I started to believe the things I heard. Got to break the cycle somehow, even if it means me staying alone forever.

Thanks everyone. I have always had a sixth sense about these things and have been going against my gut. He answered me back a couple times in one or two word very methodical answers like he didn't want to say much, it was very very not like him. I told him about my day, which normally he...

The problem with sneaky is I'm pretty much unable to play regular dating games, I'm looking for a best friend, a person I can speak about anything with. I feel like if I have to play "games" and be sneaky it just isn't me. I'm a pretty straight shooter. But have tact if course. But at...

I haven't dated for three years, the PTSD isolated me from everyone. I just started talking to a man and we have hung out a half a dozen times or so now. (No sex yet, I'm trying to get to know him.) I met him at work and he seems like a very nice person, and we chat everyday all day when...

Dearest can opener: I really thought we had a good thing going, I know they told me you were cheap and probably wouldn't stay long, but only 3 months really? You couldn't stay longer than that? At first you were so good to me, slicing right through cans like nobody's business, now my hand is in...

Lost in the words When the days get to long, and the nights are endless, Sleep never comes, only once in a while, Bad dreams invade the mind, and startle the soul Fear has crept into the night, and a release needs to be made, put my pen to paper, so my mind will be at rest, All the...

Very well written. I can really relate.. Your not gray matter, it just feels that way. Gray matter in the brain is essential for survival, so if you are gray matter, you mean everything. Sorry I'm cheesy. I hope you at least smiled at my cheese. :)

@emz315 thank you. I will check that out. :)

Be still and be safe in my arms, you will not be harmed anymore. Calm the madness inside your head, I am here. Stay inside this place with me, in the calm and the quiet, my hands are warm and do not hurt, put your hand in mine, feel the kindness in my heart. Your soul is reaching out for...

Welcome. Your in a good place. I can't believe how much of a release it is to just get these things off of my chest. I thought I had lost my mind and that I would never have a normal day, or night. Nightmares were getting more frequent and although I always loved a good horror movie- they...

Maybe pity is what we need sometimes from people who understand this horrible affliction. By definition this is a very distressing life changing event we're going through. The ones on here who have no empathy are either not suffering PTSD, or perhaps they are in denial and hearing how your...

Emile Sande "Read all about it" You've got the words to change a nation But you're biting your tongue You've spent a life time stuck in silence Afraid you'll say something wrong If no one ever hears it how we gonna learn your song? So come on, come on Come on, come on You've got a heart as loud...

Wow I thought was the only one, this has happened to me my whole life. In school and home I was torture bullied (worse than bullied, things done to me considered torturous). At home I wasn't allowed to cry, and I refused to let the bullies see me cry, so I began pinching my arms to remind...

For me it really helps, I hated being alone in this hell. What helps me is if I post something I try and make sure I read other peoples things as well and try to help at least one a day. Being alone is the worst thing to do, even though it's safer in my solitude.

I really wish I had an answer for that. I think it's like my brain is forever changed on some sort of molecular level, and if that's the case, will we/I ever be the same? Hate to be a Debbie Downer

I love everyone's different version of this. Keep it coming this is awesome!

@Lw715 sorry this happened to you. My ex aka satan I like to call him, he has a very deep deep voice, in fact when I first met him that's the first thing I heard before I ever saw him. At times at work or while I'm somewhere and someone has a deep voice I get startled. I keep praying for...